Sometimes The Nightmares Are Just As Bad!
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*MIGHT BE TRIGGERING* I have had nightmares the past two nights. I hate the nightmares sometimes they feel just as bad as the abuse. Tuesdays nightmare was so bad and so real I was actually happy when my alarm went off and woke up saying "Oh thank God." I was so happy to wake up and for the dream not to be real! This morning I woke up and so was relieved when I realized the dream was not real, it felt so real. Tuesdays dream was not about the abuse but it was about one of my abusers coming after me with rage and a terrifying determination to get me. I have never had a dream like this before and all day I had the angry face of my abuser on my mind. Last nights dream was not about the abuse or any of my abusers but it was so real and so terrifying! Nightmares are usually a sign that my PTSD is let say "acting up." I don't like it but I guess it comes with the territory. I really hate having the face of any of my abusers in my head but this particular one is the worst. It hurts and sickens me the most. I am alone for the next two days and when I am alone my thought just run like crazy! UGH! I can do this. I made it through the abuse I can make it through the aftermath...........right?
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