Day 12

Thu, 12 Jan 2017 02:01:54 +0000

I haven't been on in a while, with the holidays and what not, but I'm glad to be on again writing and venting. It was my 21st birthday a few days ago and I was scared to go out and let loose. My friend dragged me out though and I'm glad she did! I can't keep living in fear of what could happen. Not every guy is a bad one, I know that. Sometimes it can just be hard to remember that though when a stranger tries to get you to go home with them. My nightmares stopped for a few days, but they have returned, and so has my inability to sleep. Being sick keeps me up at night, but so do the dreams.... I hope it gets better soon.

Day 1

Sat, 31 Dec 2016 21:46:19 +0000

I have finally accepted that I need an outlet to deal with what has happened to me. It wasn't until recently that I realized that staying silent and keeping everything to myself was not going to help me. After having my virginity taken from me, I thought I would know what to do if I was ever placed in that situation again. I let myself become overpowered by shock. It is a helpless feeling and I'm ready to try and move past it. It's been hard to sleep, and when I do manage to sleep I always have horrible nightmares, usually with him showing up, invading the only time I have to escape. I hope that letting it all out will put my RTS past me. I know it won't be instant but I'm ready to start trying.

Trying to Recover.

Day 12

Day 1