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Today I had to see a doctor. I have been having trouble sleeping and functioning. I have been having flashbacks of the amount of control I let him have over me and it is all consuming sometimes. I feel like it’s sometimes all I can think about. They upped my antidepressant and gave me something to help me sleep. My antidepressants he liked to use against me. He would say things like... well you may not like my drinking but I don’t like your antidepressants so we are even. He kept asking me to get off of them. It always made me so angry that he would try to use this against me but if I’m really honest he would use everything and anything he could think of to get what he wanted.