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You cannot assist my dear fiancé He'd rather look around the store all day Directions, who needs those? He doesn't, I suppose So you best keep your helpful hints away!
I'm new to this site. I would eventually like to put my whole story on here. There will be triggers, so there's a forewarning, but I really need to get this all out. I've been to therapy, I've talked to friends and family members, but it's hard to feel better when no one really knows exactly how I feel. So I want to give everyone on here the chance to know exactly what is going on, if anyone is even interested. I won't use names with my story, just because things aren't all legally worked o
Ugh. Not sure what i'm doing back. It's been a while i thought i was getting stronger. Just seems like one thing is after another. at the moment. It's been almost 3 years this june since my attack it's just crazy how time either goes really fast or slow. I finally got in a relationship. Instead of just a sleeping one. I've been really happy. untill recently. I know at times i can be a lot to handle. I have a lot of insacure issues that i need to get over. I'm strong but i'm weak. I thought i ha
Be gone with you, who can not be polite My spirits are high, and aren't coming down The smile on my face exudes my delight It's glued on so tight, I feel like a clown I feel so alive, my chest might explode I wish I could say just how great I feel But there are no words that can be bestowed For my elation is just so surreal My outlook is bright, I'm filled with such glee I'm jumping with joy, and squealing with bliss I really don't care what you think of me Let the world judge me for my happines
Loyally Tender Occasionally Observant Virtuous in hearty endeavors Endlessly being silently patient Ongoing respect truly essential Fervently essaying firey love Matrimonial these thoughts You ought to concieve of Lovingly, personify us
I thought once I told someone it would start to get better I was wrong. I told my mum I was raped, finally, it took me 2 years to tell her. Now I wish I hadn't. I can see it hurting her and it kills me seeing her hurt because of something that happened to me. She blames herself for me getting raped and I hate it. I hesitated in telling her for this precise reason. I don't want her to feel upset because of me. I feel like if I hadn't told her things would be easier... Anybody else understand th
I'm scared. I'm angry. I have nightmares. I force smiles on my face. I'm hurt and today is not a good day for me. I black out. I suffer in silence. I don't want that anymore. I don't want to worry when my panic attacks will come. I don't like to be touched.... Sorry, I'm New to this and this is what is going thru my mind...
Proud, arrogant, and conceited- Her first impressions of Mr.Darcy, She believed despite just having met. She had judged a book by its cover. He thought nothing of her, Miss Lizzy, A plain young lady he thought a bore, Unintelligent, uneducated she had to be, He had judged a book by its cover. Instantly hating him for his own words, For dividing her sister from her true love Her first impression proved stronger now She had judged a book by its cover. A longer look proved she had beauty, Listening
You said that you were sorry, You said it wouldn't happen again, That the alcohol was behind it, That you would make amends You said that you were sorry, Indeed it happened once more, You made us empty promises The same ones from before You said that you were sorry, You requested another chance For a short time things improved, Followed by the same old song and dance You said that you were sorry, But by then it was too late I was much too scared to leave, My fear had sealed my fate You said that
Bewildering images unprocessed she sees Light for the first time magically mystifying Unfamiliar objects, surroundings brand new Eager eyes exploring fresh territory so bizarre Endearing glances up towards loving faces Young, newborn eyes devouring all in sight Expressive, curious, innocent looks on her face Surprised sapphire eyes filled with such delight
Seasonal scenery silently seen Sounds stifled, society seems serene She savors sweets - smells sunflowers Soft skin stimulated, sensational shower Symbols she signals, seeking support Society sees such sentences so short
We've struggled and said "no" Made our boundaries crystal clear We've given in submissively To alleviate without consent our fear We no longer know who we are Our identities have gone astray We struggle with our memories Willfully wishing them away A sudden touch can trigger us We never forget the violations We're startled by sudden sounds Sometimes into dissociation We're not sure how to trust We generally feel insecure We're always second-guessing Of our own decisions we're unsure We battle wi
Thoughts and feelings both concealed Teeth and tongue frequently reunited The alternative being excess chaos Spoken and implicit ammo uninvited Burning fuel beneath camouflage invisible Verbal bullets wittingly choked back Battling the urge to ignite a hostile war In spite of your unprovoked attack Your open and closed hostilities rebuffed I suffer inner conflict out of sheer respect In favor of peaceful conditions for others Who never detect my mental straitjacket For the sanity of others my ow
Why do you keep doing things I have not approved? Bringing other animals here simply will not be excused. I am not a bird simply here for your amusement, Listen to me human while I clear up the confusion. If you bring home a bird - that means it is my snack Don't lock it away from me or I assure you I'll attack. I'll make a mess of everything to break open that cage, And you will have no right to throw a fit of human rage. Rodents, birds, and rabbits are only to be treats, Other felines or dogs
I will never forget the blissful summer of '09 Love, fear, adrenaline bursting through my veins That was the summer I experienced my firsts: Relationship, love-making and lets not forget the planes My first time at an airport, I was going alone I was scared - that's for sure - but what could I do? The fear of crashing was there in the back of my mind At the end of my journey though - I knew there was you The zoo, the park, the golfing and bowling So much to do - and with such little time to spar
"Do unto others as you would have them do unto you" This verse is running around in circles in my head I hate when we argue and get into such fights I feel bad about all the awful things that were said "Do unto others as you would have them do unto you" A simple saying meant to act as one's moral guide I know I should apologize - I genuinely want to What is standing in my way is swallowing my pride "Do unto others as you would have them do unto you" This certainly holds true the other way around
Little miss innocent, miss uncommonly kind, Sweetheart, wake up - wherever you are I know that you're in there somewhere I feel you sleeping within my heart. It's about time you woke up now, I can't do without your positive outlook, Keep those rose-colored glasses on, Don't stop devouring those books. Darling, your imagination is a wonderful thing, Daydreams will never cause you stress. Please stop worrying what people think of you, You are so blissfully, wonderfully blessed To have that optimis
I used to race to the front door when I'd hear you come home, I would greet you excitedly with a hug and a smile I was daddy's little girl, it didn't take much to make you proud - Nor did it take much to make you angry and hostile. As I grew older it was much more of a challenge, Making you proud and appeasing you were a definition combined. I appeased you one moment, then suddenly disappointed, And proud again the next moment in your shifty state
I've recently started getting back into writing poetry, and so I decided to create a blog for it on here These are all taken from my poetry page on Allpoetry.com. I hope you enjoy my poetry, and if you'd like to comment, please feel free I enjoy hearing others opinions and responses.
Hello, I'm going to keep my name anonymous, maybe when I'm stronger I can say it, but for now, I'll leave it at that I am a 19 year old female. I'm from the United States and am currently studying abroad in Germany. I joined this forum because I was recently date raped and I wanted an unbiased place to talk about what happened and to hopefully get advice on moving on or feedback. I am choosing not to tell many people because I am not ready yet. So here's my story, I apologize if it's "obscene":
Hello I'm helannah i am 16 years of age and this is my story. In 2011 i had a boyfriend called ryan and we've never had sexual intercourse but as we got further into the relationship he started acting really weird towards me as if i wasn't there any more,2 weeks after we had been together he raped me while his mother was downstairs i didn't say nothing until 1 month after but i told the police about it and i had no justice at all he got 180 hours community servise 7 years on the sex offenders r
