A while ago I was involved with a similar site called RYL; Recover Your Life. It's a great site, but it's about self harm mostly, and since I haven't even thought about my past addiction in 3 years, it's not really fulfilling my needs anymore. What I need now is to learn how to trust again. I need to learn how to enjoy sex, now that I have someone who makes me happy and treats me properly. Though I have enjoyed sex with my boyfriend of a year and a half, I still shut down and hit a wall way more than I want to. I had a line of abusive and bad relationships after my rape at 14, and I've done a lot of healing, but I can't do everything on my own. I've come so far from the girl who wouldn't speak to anyone and go into a mental fetal position for an hour at a time, to the person who can accurately describe what she's feeling in real time, but it doesn't mean I can chose what to feel. I need a push to continue moving on and to be ok with consensual sex with someone who loves me that I love too.
Anyway, that's me in a nutshell. I look forward to combing the forums in my spare time.