You are so brave, I am a lot older then you. I have had therapy for the abuses and a rape that I experienced in the past.I have a lot of work that I must do for the sake of my self others like us that need to come out of the silence.I have come to understand that I need to reach out and to help others to heal and share our experience strength and hope.This is the only way to come out of the shadows of silence.This will help others to feel empowered to speak out and give voice. This I believe is my given mission.
I have been running away from for year I Have PTSD. This all way is a lingering reminder that I still have to reach out and communicate with other survivors in recover.My best friends father was molesting the boys in choir and my friend and her siblings. I was raped in my late 20's then Married a perpetrator/also a victims of teenage sexual abuse he could not embrace recovery and was abusive to me and my 2 children. I pulled out when they were very young and latter found out that it was not soon enough.
The authorities where involved. I moved to another state were some of my family was. I then was able to report everything and then all of us were in therapy/ social workers to help us through this painful experience. I did not make things more difficult by finding a replacement father because I was afraid I would just end up with an other abuser. So I have lived and been raising my 2 children on my own I am divorced 8 year no contact for 10. I pray that he will find recovery.
I have done every thing I could do to make sure they never have contact with their father so I live half way across the country. They are all most 18 many thing I made sure of they went through therapy when the were young and I see know they may have to face it all again for thier to have a deeper recovery. I am in so much pain about the whole thing. i do not want them to unconsciously act out and hurt them selves as adults because of thier past abuse. I am not sure how to help them in thier recovery as youg adults. I am still feeling like it is not enough. I just want them to have a better future them my past. Keep pushing forward. Sincerely Issyjay
Edited by izzyjay, 03 July 2013 - 03:03 PM.