I am 29 years old. I was raped and lost my virginity when I was 26. Just 2 months prior to the rape incident, I moved to the area (where he raped me) to begin my PhD program. I was far from my family and friends and I was in the process of making new friends. I was a bit lonely during that time.
Not only did he rape me but he said racist, extremely vulgar, violent, and demeaning things. It was both a physical and mental assault. As he raped me he yelled "I hate you! You are so weak!"
Unfortunately, I was in a state of disbelief and could not communicate coherently, make sound decisions, or think clearly afterwards. I was also in excruciating physical pain due to two sexually transmitted diseases that he gave me. I did not report him. During that time, I just wanted to make the pain stop. I attempted suicide two weeks after the incident. After almost 3 years of therapy, 2 separate occassions of being committed in a mental health hospital, retreats, prayer, and dealing with illness, I finally admitted to myself that I was raped. If you are reading this and you were raped, I am extremely sorry that we live on a planet where living beings do such things to each other.
Edited by Flowergarden, 02 March 2013 - 10:59 PM.