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Question T Asked Me Today
Posted 18 July 2011 - 11:34 PM
Here are some of my responses... Just curious what would be some of yours?
I wouldn’t have an excuse when I do things wrong.
I wouldn’t have an excuse for my anger.
I wouldn’t have to pretend anymore.
I would have to be real.
I would have to trust myself.
I would have to trust other people.
I would have to let go of controlling everything little thing in my life.
I would be able to really cry.
I wouldn’t be the strong one.
I would have to have a range of feelings.
I wouldn’t have to be isolated myself anymore.
I wouldn’t have to be scared all the time.
I would have to slow down.
Posted 19 July 2011 - 12:39 AM
I would have to move on.
I would be able to succeed.
Posted 19 July 2011 - 08:12 AM
I wouldn't have to wear the 'happy face', I could just be happy
I wouldn't be scared of being near men
I would be able to live my life again and socialise without believing I would be hurt at any given moment
I would be whatever weight and accepting of it
I could trust my own judgement
I would be able to name the feelings I have
I could cry when I need to
I wouldn't have to be in control all the time and I could allow others to take some of it
I would be at peace.
It seems a long list and there's more that I could add to it *sigh*
Somethings to hope for I suppose.
Posted 19 July 2011 - 01:22 PM
I would feel peace. Calm in the midst of the storm. Storms will always be around.
I would feel joy. Not fake happiness. Genuine joy.
I would enjoy intimacy with my husband.
I would accept that I am not perfect. And that I don't need to be.
Good enough would be just that: good enough.
I would truly believe good things about me.
I wouldn't have excuses.
I wouldn't have justification for being angry.
I wouldn't have to be in control of everything...all the time.
I wouldn't feel responsible for other people's happiness (or lack thereof)
I wouldn't feel fake, phoney, or as if I was "pretending" all the time.
I would just be real.
And that would be OK.
Posted 19 July 2011 - 01:34 PM
i would do the same in accepting others as long as they are not truly hurting any one.
i would no longer always expect the worst
i would live with a sense of peace in the present moment.
Posted 19 July 2011 - 01:44 PM
I would be able to remember a whole day without having lost sections of time
I would be able to make a decision without hearing an ongoing debate about it in my head
I would be able to live without the constant fear that some simple every day life occurance would trigger me into overwhelming feelings internally, or some flashback of horror, only to hide it and robotically function another day
I would be able to quit acting and begin being
Posted 20 July 2011 - 01:50 AM
Oppsss trying to stay away to post... my Ambien (sleep meds kicking in)
Posted 02 August 2011 - 04:23 PM
I would feel normal
I would feel at home in my skin
I would know who I was
I wouldn't keep thinking that killing myself would be a good idea
I wouldn't want to hurt myself
I would have a healthy relationship with food
I would be able to enjoy a sexual relationship
I wouldn't feel like the odd one out
I wouldn't keep sabotaging my life
I wouldn't keep desperately seeking attention, affection, validation and love
I would feel free
Posted 02 August 2011 - 04:37 PM
I could take down the barrier wall around me
I wouldn't wake up dreading the day ahead
I could give the love i have without fear
I would feel peace in knowing that when I die, my last thoughts/feelings would be totally unconnected to the abuse
I could enjoy all the beautuful things in the world, without feeling any joy I feel is tainted
Good question! - really got me thinking!
Edited by nikkipurple, 02 August 2011 - 04:37 PM.
Posted 02 August 2011 - 04:56 PM
I would trust my gut.
I would be able to set boundaries without guilt.
I wouldn't feel so ashamed of my past.
I wouldn't spend any more time in terror that it will happen again.
Edited by Solameya, 02 August 2011 - 04:57 PM.
Posted 04 August 2011 - 02:33 PM
If someone does something that upsets me or makes me angry, I could tell them right then and not hold it in letting it fester and grow.
I could trust fully, not expecting people to hurt me everytime.
I would stop using food to fill the hole inside me.
I would actually have peace in my mind.
Life would have so much possibility.
Posted 06 August 2011 - 09:05 PM
Maybe better put as:
For me the journey of healing is indistinguishable from establishing for my love real and valid power in the world and learning/finding ways to be heard.
Healing for me means having a family even though I have to start one from scratch. Therefore, when I am healed I will have a family and I will have a legacy and an inheritance to leave to my children, both material and not material.
Posted 07 August 2011 - 09:35 AM