I am hoping to be accepted here. I am a survivor of date rape. It happened in feb 95. I thought i had delt with it and was hoping to escape the nightmares etc. No such luck. I am writting this at 2.50am and i have joined here because i have just had my first nightmare in 2 years and i am freaked by it and freaked by how i am feeling. I needed to find a community that looked safe and real, hence i chose here. I am normally a strong person but at night i am weak. Seen as the incident happened a few years back i have kind of learned to ask for hellp when i need it, so here i am - help me please.
I now know why the nightmares have started as i am currently helping a friend escape a abusive relationship, (so far with success.), however to gain her trust i read half of my diary from *that time in my life* last week. Good call on her trusting me, bad call on my nightlife. I cant believe that i am writting this. This feels so surreal. I was doing so well.



