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[Haych25]

Dear me,

We need to talk, we should have had this convo years ago but i guess it's better
late then never.
I know you feel hopeless and worthless but you were made to feel that way its not the truth.
The truth is you dont realise how strong and amazing you are to have overcome such a horrific experiance at such a young age.
I know you feel like you have acheived nothing in you life but with your inner strength, maturity and level headedness you pulled your self through a difficault time although there is still a long way to go.
That is the biggest acheivement so be proud of yourself!
I would like to talk the young girl inside for a moment who is still inside because she hasnt fully developed mentally to grow out of you. I want to give her the hug she never had and tell her..
Listen to me when I say you are not at fault.. you didnt contribute in anyway,
you are not to blame. You didn't allow it to happen.. you were just paralysed by the shock.
Dont think nobody would have cared or believed you.. you just hid it so well.
You don't have to hide the hurt from me I know you feel pain and it's okay to cry.
You can talk to me I care for you.. your not alone anymore.
I know you walk with your head down in shame but your not the shamefull one he is to blame.
Its time to reprogram and fully comprehend the truth.. you are the innocent little girl
that was violated in a sexual way.
who learnt to accept but not condone it in anyway.. but was mature enough to accept it happens
and trys to deal with it in your own way.
You just need to find your self worth again.. he made you this way but now its
Time To Break The Chain!

Yours Trully,

Yourself

Edited by Haych25, 11 April 2010 - 02:01 PM.

[FrenchFry]

Dear me,

You need to stop panicking so terribly and face your fears so you can finally live life the way you want to. Stop letting what that jack*** did hold you back from your dreams, because he didn't take away what makes you you. It's not your fault nor was it ever. Stop feeling like you're a terrible person because you aren't driving to his house, beating his a**, and preventing him from ever taking advantage of another person. I know that the more people you find out that he did this to the angrier you get and the more of a "hero" you want to be, but going to jail won't help you at all. The people who are truly terrible for not acting are the people who are around him and know what he's up to and do nothing about it. Even more horrible is Jason. He'll never grow up. You heard yourself how much worse he's gotten.

I'm not sure what else to say... Let's go to bed. I hope some day you can sleep without checking to see if he's at the foot of your bed.

Love,
Yourself

[Jen4now]

Your fine just the way you are

Dear Mini Me

I’m sorry no one told you how sweet and pretty you were. You were an innocent and honest little girl, and you deserved to be loved and cared for. No one deserves to be called stupid, fat, or told eyes. You were given too much responsibility from a young age and you had to learn to look after yourself and your siblings.

I’m sorry your mother abused you under the umbrella of strict discipline. No child deserves to drink their own blood, whipped with a wire or poked in the eye and all the other cruel things she did to you. Constantly living in fear of attack and being told “I bought you into this world and I can take you out” no one deserves to live in fear of dying. It’s not a nice way to live, and it unfair and I’m sorry you had to live like that. I know you weren’t allowed to have friends, and that shouldn’t have been allowed to happen. You are no bodies’ property and you deserve the right to have freedom to play to laughs and to make friends with who you choose.

Im glade you found a way through all the heart ache and pain. I know you spent many minutes, hours, and days day dreaming and you very much enjoyed the ability to escape from reality.
I also know you learnt to turn off you feeling and emotions from a very young age , I’m glad you were able to protect yourself. I’m sorry no one came to help you but I’m proud you made it own your own.

You sheltered life and your obedient quiet personality made you a target from sexual predictors. I’m sorry you had to endure so much pain in silence. I hope you know you are not to blame and have never been.

I have and I always will always love you and it’s important that you remember that, because without you I would not have become the bright, articulate, loveable young lady you see today.

[Tessa]

editing out.

Edited by Tessa, 12 June 2011 - 03:58 AM.

[BAW]

Dear Broken,

What happened to you was NOT your fault. You didn’t know that when you started dating him he would turn out to be the man he was. You didn’t know about the drugs, you didn’t know about his temper, you thought he was good guy. I know that right now it seems like everything is your fault, for hanging out with him, for not leaving the relationship sooner, but you were scared and rightfully so. I’m not going to lie, it will take you a long time to feel even a little better then you do now but it does get better. You are a lot stronger then you think you are and you CAN pull through all of this. You will go on to school and make amazing friends that even though they don’t know it saved your life. They will help you just by being a friend that you can trust. Don’t close yourself off just because one person in your life hurt you. You will learn to love again. You are amazing, now you can smile without feeling guilty, so hold your head high and say he won’t control my life, only I can do that. Walk away from it all because you are better then what he made you and you won’t let him control your life. Love yourself, believe in yourself, and don’t forget you’re beautiful.

Love,
Moving on

[BaronessSamedi]

Dear self -

I hope this letter finds you well - as you're learning to be. I know these past years have been hard for you. I know you have a hard time trusting, that you still, sometimes, believe you aren't worth anything. But yet, sometimes you're doing well. You're amazing.

I want you to know that eventually, this will all be behind you. But you still know that this will also always be a part of you - and that nothing you ever say or do will lessen the pain that you feel some nights, alone, or in the shower, or just...there. But you also know that you will learn to be stronger than those people that hurt you. Because ultimately, you are far better than those people who have caused you pain.

There is hope for you yet, that someday you will open your mouth and the words will flow forth as you want them to, that they will not be dammed up, caught in your chest and throat, sticking painfully as they do now. Someday you will blink your eyes and allow yourself to cry if you desire to do so, if something does catch in your throat, you can let it out through your tears. Someday, you will be able to offer a better shoulder and ear to those who feel close enough to you to speak of their experiences, because your shame won't get in the way of your understanding.

I offer you this and much more - that you will heal, that you will live, that you will thrive and prosper through all this.

Never forget that you are well-loved.
~Baroness