Hi Everyone
I'm just so touched by all your replies,it means so much to me to know im not on my own with this nightmare.Sorry i havent been posting,i havent even had the energy,i just want to lie in bed, im just that exhausted,i think im pretty bad with depression and i cant get a decent sleep cause im having all these really horrible nightmares.And whats with the paranoid thing,i imagine hes watching me,am convinced if i have to go out h'ell be there,i just feel really jumpy.Someone else said in a post that they just want to be numbed just to have a rest,well that pretty much sums it up for me anyway.I could go on and on but im sure youve all read this before or posted this yourselves.Every morning when i get up im not sure what im gonna be like,its kind of scary ,not knowing how ill be.
How are you all anyways?Im gonna try and post more,im sure its good therapy.Ive been seeing a rape counsellor(twice so far)I feel really anxious when i see her but i do manage to talk although we havent discussed the real intimate stuff yet.
I dont think i can write anymore tonight.My concentration span must be nil.
Take care every one
Love
NicXXXXX