Welcome to After Silence - A message board and chat room for rape, sexual assault, and sexual abuse survivors.
|Welcome to After Silence, a message board and chat room designed to help survivors communicate in the recovery of rape, sexual abuse, sexual assault, and all types of sexual violence.
After Silence has over 30 different forums, ranging from topics created to discuss specific areas of healing and recovery from rape and sexual violence, as well as forums open to general discussions and lighter topics. Because we value the privacy of our members, most of our forums are private, which means that ONLY REGISTERED members have access to them. Please register for a free account to gain full access to the After Silence Online Support Group.
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Posted 20 April 2004 - 07:11 PM
i am a victim. i am a survivor. i am a fighter.
i was raped almost 11 months ago. a year in may.
and i still wish a car would plow into me when i cross the street.
like, in my head i know i should be better...but everything else tells me i deserved it. With every breath i take, i still feel raped.
i need a circle. i need validation. i need...something. i thought i might be able to find it here.
Posted 20 April 2004 - 07:19 PM
Edited by Lilea, 20 April 2004 - 07:20 PM.
Posted 20 April 2004 - 07:25 PM
Posted 20 April 2004 - 08:08 PM
I'm so sorry for what happened to you. But I am glad you have found this place, because everyone here will help you as best we can on your road to healing. I'm also a r*pe victim. I know the feelings of guilt and so forth that can consume you. You hold on. like you said, you're a survivor! and you're a fighter! You sound strong already honey.
Posted 21 April 2004 - 11:57 AM
I understand the feeling of wishing a car would plow into you. I have been there.
I have found this place to be a wonderful place to connect with others who understand exactly what I am experiencing. There is nothing like being with those who "get it" and can offer some insight on ways to get by.
Take good care.
Posted 21 April 2004 - 07:59 PM
again thank you so much for your kindness and hugs.
Posted 21 April 2004 - 09:49 PM
Posted 22 April 2004 - 03:52 AM
Take precious care of yourself,
Posted 22 April 2004 - 10:02 PM
Posted 23 April 2004 - 06:57 AM
anyay..welcome to teh board...i dont think u "should be over it" people can take years to get over something like tis and what happened to u was horrible and it was NOT ur fault ....my rape was three yeras ago (in may) and im still nto over it..ur not alone ...
Posted 23 April 2004 - 04:39 PM
Glad you're finding the boards a wonderful healing place.