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The Inner Child Thread
Posted 14 November 2005 - 10:02 AM
Posted 14 November 2005 - 06:13 PM
This concept is very new to me. I was just reading some of your posts and many of them made me cry...which unfortunately isn't very easy to do. I am not sure how to feel about this and it makes me a bit fearful for some reason. I think I will have to come back here after I have taken some time to process it.
It seems incredible.
Thank you for this!
Posted 16 November 2005 - 03:00 PM
Today i wanna tell my inner child that on one pants note everything is falling apart, but at least that means things can only get better
Posted 17 November 2005 - 03:58 PM
Dear little one
I am feeling okay right now, and that makes me really happy. The last few days we have both been rather brave and taken steps that have led us into the unknown again. We went back into counselling, and although we don't have Lisa this time we do have Katie. I know how much you liked Lisa and how she made you feel all warm and safe inside, but hopefully we will get that feeling with Katie to....we could certanly give it a chance couldn't we?. I really don't like the place that we are having the counselling, of all places it had to be in a doctors surgery, that really raises my anxiety levels so i know that we are probably more nervous than we normally would be...but im willing to give it a go, and this time i would really like to be able to listen to what you want to say in the counselling process too.
we also had those job interviews today, god i was so nervous...contemplating working again is real scary but we have to do it, so that we can have a decent standard of life...the nurseries we saw were nice, and i have good feelings about them.... hopefully our future is beggining to improve, what do you think?
I am glad that your feeling okay, i am feeling okay too. I had a bad nightmare the other night, but of course you know about that, and you did try to comfort me so its okay.
The counselling is scary, and my tummy had the wobbles when we first went, Katie is nice, i think, but she isn't Lisa and i really miss Lisa...How do we know that we can trust Katie? ~ i guess i will let you decide that. I may talk to Katie, but right now i am nervous of her. I don't like it being in the doctors it makes me real uncomfortable, maybe you could tell katie how you feel about that.
I wonder what you want to find out from counselling, do you really want me to talk, im not sure what to say, i really don't want to hurt you, but i am fed up hiding and maybe now we should talk properly about things...what do you think?
~ love always, little one
~ well my inner child and myself are both putting the 'balls' back into each others courts... i get the feeling that right now neither one of us wants to makea decision about what to do next..... strangely enough im okay with that....kind of a 'what will be, will be' attitude right now....and that feels fine.
Posted 18 November 2005 - 12:28 AM
We're both very exhausted. I feel like I can take on K, which I know is coming my way. At the same time, she's tired tired tired.
Its a tough time of the year for us too. Lost a lot of really close people to us. One she knew, his name was Jason. I graduated with him in High school (a few years ago), but we grew up together since grade school. He taught her how to draw flowers. She likes to color, paint, write love notes to her friends.....nobody knows its her though. She likes to stay hidden in the shadows where I can keep her safe.
I feel so disconnected to her lately and that makes me really sad....I don't feel complete without her.
Posted 18 November 2005 - 12:40 AM
Posted 18 November 2005 - 07:39 AM
Edited by rainbowstar, 24 November 2005 - 03:26 AM.
Posted 20 November 2005 - 07:27 AM
inner child: No
Edited by rainbowstar, 24 November 2005 - 03:27 AM.
Posted 20 November 2005 - 08:39 AM
Posted 20 November 2005 - 09:34 AM
Hugs for Teazle's and Daydreamer's innerchildren
Can we set up a creche please? I need to escape from my inner child for a bit - I'll pay good money!
Posted 21 November 2005 - 12:03 AM
my childs name is tina. I do not know why i named her tina but I named her about 8 yrs or so ago.
I have just started with this new counsellor and surprisingly her name is tina - what a surprise!! any way
i would just like to say to you - that you are doing well - even after knowing you so long i like your courage and determination.
Posted 22 November 2005 - 05:20 AM
That made me smile so much this morning. Perhaps we could draw up a rota?
To all the new people and their inner children on this thread, I just want to say welcome This is a safe space.
Posted 22 November 2005 - 05:24 AM
I know you've been scared by a few things recently. I know you don't like the sounds of Kate coughing at night, and that it makes you feel all sorts of things that you'd rather not. But I wanted to say that I am proud of you. I am proud of you for coming and finding me on Sunday night, and asking for a huggle. Remember, anytime you want to come and sleep in my arms you can. It's okay.
And I know you were there with Hilary yesterday too. You are doing SO WELL. I'm super proud of you darling.
With so much love,