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The Inner Child Thread
Posted 26 April 2011 - 05:29 PM
Wee Emma, I don't know if I ever told you how proud I am of you for telling Frances and Catherine. They did go to him and tell him to stop and it really isn't your fault that he didn't and when they shout at big Emma, that's their guilt. When Catherine said you were a spoilt brat & deserved all you got, she was drunk which is no excuse but had nothing to do with you, you definitely were not a spoilt brat. You by the way are bloody amazing. Who was it that stopped him? You that's who, you outsmarted him, never forget that and just because everybody tells you that big Emma is so like her mummy, that doesn't mean that big Emma will have the same bad judgement in men and I think it's time to trust her - she'll need your help though.
Oh and thank you so much for making Big Emma wear the Minnie Mouse Ears around Disney and home to Belfast she loved it.
Love you always to the moon and back xxx
oh wow that was really cathartic - thank you for this thread.
Posted 27 April 2011 - 08:51 PM
I get that it's good to be in contact with your inner child...but how? I'm so big and she's so tiny; its even worse than dealing with real-life children. I'm afraid I'll accidentally smoosh her...and I think she's afraid of me just 'cause I'm a grown up.
Or does all this just sound utterly daft?
Posted 29 April 2011 - 11:35 PM
I'm sorry your husband doesn't understand the inner child. My husband is having trouble with it too, so now he is coming to bonus therapy appointments so my t can explain things to him.
Posted 29 April 2011 - 11:37 PM
I am finally going to let you have your way tonight and you get to sleep with your stuffed animal. I know you've needed the comfort and I haven't let you have that because it keeps me awake. Tonight is about you and your needs so enjoy!
Posted 30 April 2011 - 01:58 AM
Edited by abbywil83, 09 May 2011 - 10:01 PM.
Posted 12 March 2013 - 11:04 PM
Posted 14 March 2013 - 06:15 AM
I've only just seen this thread but I need to say this somewhere. I hate little M. I'm terrified of her. I think she has a power over me that I don't really understand. I have dreams where she'll kill me just to keep the silence. She knows more than I do but she won't tell me any of it. I want to know about my past and she won't tell me. I really really hate her. I feel bad for saying that but I can't deny that it's true. I'm scared of her and I hate her.
Posted 15 March 2013 - 11:05 PM
The first time I was asked to think about my inner chid.... The group facilitator asked us to give our child a hug.... I couldn't help thinking, is she the kind of child I would like? Would I even want to hug her? And the answer in my head was that she was a little brat....
And sometimes I even hated her....
I wanted to kill her.... I liked keeping her separate from grown-up me and pretend what happened to her hadn't happened to me.
We aren't exactly on friendly terms yet, but my T asked me to draw the two of us together and I drew us sitting on a picnic rug, sharing food. I wasn't ready to love her yet, but I wanted her to be happy and cared for (picnics were always one of my favourite things to do.. and still are)
Posted 16 March 2013 - 12:11 AM
Sweet little boy.........I am starting to get little tiny glimpses of you and I'm so sorry I left you behind all these years in silence and alone.............I am now learning in a very deep way what it means to love you through my 3 year old grandson............I want to take your hand like I learned in taking his and help you know you are loved and I want to help you feel and live outloud like you deserve..........you have been silent so long........take my hand........