Mine is dead.
Destiny, are you sure she is gone, dead? She may just be buried so deeply within you that you cannot see or find her. I hope you keep searching. I tried this new things that someone else spoke of , in a different context, about feeling her inner child.
I bought a few very youthful coloring books, like the ones we would give to a 2-5 year old. I sat and started to color with my "left" and, rather than my right. I am right handed.
It was a very interesting experience and I plan to so this more. I felt young and found myself concentrating to stay in the lines and even biting my bottom lip in working to do it well. I never, or rarely, sign my full first name anymore. If it's a personal note, I drop the y at the end.
When I was finished with the first page I very much wanted to sign my name with the same sort of thing I did when I was young and safe, at my Grandmother's house.
I signed the pages I colored
the last one, I even put a smiley face
maybe you could give this a try, it gave me a good feeling, after some time, maybe you would feel her within you or you would simply know she was not really dead?
Just an idea
hugs and hugs and healing sent your way