I'm new too—just recently started understanding where a host of symptoms have been coming from over the years, and uncovered memories in therapy that I was sexually abused when I was very little (2-6). I'm in my late 30s now, so it's good that you are looking for help and healing at this early stage of your life!
I'm so sorry for the pain that you are in, and I too am trying to understand what healing looks like.
Here here to RUSH—I was just rocking out to Moving Pictures yesterday in my car on my way to therapy. It helped. I learned how to play drums by air drumming to Neil's amazing playing. Music is now my profession, but before I was a professional, it was the perfect escape/coping mechanism/way to make friends. Getting lost in music is the most healthy drug I think there is—not just the sound, but the physicality of it. People who have experienced trauma, especially as children/teens, need to connect to their bodies and regain a sense of agency (your body is YOURS completely). Anything physical will do this, but you have the right idea: yoga, hiking, and playing an instrument will all help with this. I'm a runner, I swim when I can, and I play tennis when I can. Tennis and drumming were great for me in high school (I mean, you get to hit stuff as hard as you want in a really focused, meaningful way).
Anyway, good to see you here—take care of yourself.
Glad to see I have a fellow Rush fan here! I'm actually wearing my Clockwork Angels Tour T-Shirt as I write Their music has certainly gotten me through a lot. My father drums and Neil Peart is his idol, so I suppose I have him to thank for introducing me. Whenever I start feeling overwhelmed, I start playing Hope and it really helps. Being trapped inside lately, learning 2112 for guitar has also really helped keep me distracted. I'm glad you've been able to turn music into something more than an outlet, but a profession. What a great thing to share with the world.
I'm sorry for the circumstances which made you find your way here, but I'm glad you did. I really appreciate your welcome. Hopefully we can both find out what healing looks like.
Thanks again for the welcome.