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Loving Our Bodies, Loving Ourselves
Posted 16 January 2007 - 01:40 PM
Since turning 30 last month, I have decided to make time for myself, to do things that I love and would make me feel good about myself.
I stopped going to the gym in July and have gained about 10 lbs. Yesterday, I decided to go back to the gym and do what I love: Spinning, Pilates, Yoga and Running. At least 3 times a week, no less.
I will take my time in the kitchen and stop buying processed foods and enjoy a great home cooked meal. I have found that there's nothing more pleasing than making a favorite recipe and savoring every bite. With a glass of red wine, of course!
It's always been hard for me to make time for reading since I have work and school full-time, but I love to unwind with a good book. Right now I am reading Jane Eyre by Charlotte Brontė.
I absolutely love to crochet while watching movies.
I have what feels like Body Dysmorphic Disorder and I do believe that working on my image will help tremendously.
Posted 17 January 2007 - 12:26 AM
Posted 17 January 2007 - 11:52 AM
I do things to 'look after' myself, but only so I don't stand out. Just to fit in, I don't do it to feel 'good' about myself. Hmmm. I'll try the lipgloss thing tonight
What do you do about looking nice to go out, when you have red scars on your arm?? I used to wear nice tops but now I can't... because I don't really know what sort of jacket thingy to put with it! It would be nice to feel pretty again for a day.
Posted 25 January 2007 - 05:46 PM
What a great thread. I like the idea.
I am not feeling able to post on this subject, but will try to make up a small list of what I have been doing.
Thanks for all the great sharing.
Posted 07 February 2007 - 03:19 PM
~ taking long showers and soaping up with my hands, which meant touching every inch of my body. It made me get to know my body.
~ making myself take a long bubble bath and again cleaning my body with my hands.
~ lotioning up DAILY after the long showers; massaging my feet, calves, hands.
~ working out. That made me feel my body alive, blood pumping, sweating.
~ recognizing and not accepting any bad thoughts about my body.
~ telling myself that I am beautiful inside and out and that nobody can tell me otherwise.
~ getting a manicure, pedicure, waxing done once in a while.
Posted 12 March 2007 - 01:13 PM
Posted 12 March 2007 - 03:25 PM
One thing I've started doing on a very conscious level, and on a consistent basis is visualizing my hand reaching up, palm outward in the "STOP" sign kind of way, in response to ANY negative thoughts I have about myself (more often than not they are body image related, but sometimes just "stupid" or "lazy" etc).
As soon as I have halted the thought (and the visualization makes for a dramatic halt), I reverse the negative message in my head to something positive, typically the opposite of what I just thought.
For example, if I walk past a window or mirror and see my reflection, and the thought pops into my head that I am a slug and really need to do something about my weight, I visualize the "STOP" sign hand, then I tell myself over and over, "I am thin and lithe and every day I achieve greater and greater health." (Ok, so I'm not really thin and lithe, but my subconscious mind only knows what I tell it... and the more I believe it to be true the more my mind will make it become a reality.)
I also find that showering, putting on makeup, and wearing a smile, even when I don't feel like smiling is often enough to get me over the hump.
I love this thread and am going to work on finding something new every day to add!
Awesome idea, Nicole!
Posted 12 March 2007 - 07:30 PM
That is a very good idea you have! To elaborate on that thought, actually saying, "NO" or "STOP" outloud when negative thoughts arise may be equally powerful. It goes back to the power of your voice. I might have to try that!
I had a pretty bad day today, so it was nice to see this thread had been bumped Now I think I will go take some of the advice posted here and try to make the end of the day a little better. Thanks ladies
Posted 01 June 2008 - 09:41 AM
Dates with yourself! I have planned nice quiet evenings at home with a movie, book or some good music, cooked a nice dinner and instead of getting dressed up I'll put on my favorite comfy clothes. It really feels good and can be extremely healing. I felt totally spoiled the first time I did it!
Posted 01 June 2008 - 09:09 PM
I sometimes look in a mirror and analyze myself without judgment. I just desribe my features, and then try to find things I like about my appearance. It helps me not to focus on the things I don't like about myself, like my weight, but to look at myself as a whole, not just the fat person I see.
I do lots of affirmations about myself. I tell myself I'm beautiful. Even if I don't believe it, the purpose is to keep repeating it to myself so I will start to believe it.
I have a chart where I write something negative I feel about myself, and then in the next column I challenge it. I used to have to use positive words that other people have said about me, but I've improved enough to straight-out challenge it with my own thoughts.
I love having "beauty" time. I take a long shower or bath, put on good-smelling lotion, put leave-in conditioner in my hair, use a clay mask that makes me feel refreshed and my face smooth, put on comfy clothes that make me feel good, maybe paint my nails, and relax.
My favorite "feel-good" clothes are just pajama pants (or my yoga pants) and a cute, soft, and comfortable tank top.
I also do yoga and meditate with incense and scented candles. Music is powerful to me, I really listen to it, not just hear it, and it feels like it's pumping through my veins. So listening to music I love makes me feel great and although I do meditate in complete silence, I also do with music.
I have an eating disorder, and my focus has been on calories and losing weight. I've been stopping myself when those thoughts come and I try to redirect my focus to nutrients, strength, and fitness. I love exercise and having a healthy meal makes me feel good. Going running and lifting weights makes me feel more powerful and confident, as well as feeling like I accomplished something when I come back from a run.
Posted 02 June 2008 - 07:57 PM
Edited by AWhisperofTruth, 02 June 2008 - 07:59 PM.
Posted 02 June 2008 - 10:08 PM
I also bought myself some new clothes recently, partially because I have gained weight with my recent medical issues. I purchased some new things that flatter me at whatever weight I might be at. No more fat/ skinny clothes! I also bought myself two new pairs of shoes!
Posted 09 June 2008 - 12:14 PM
Taking long bubble baths. I have a jacuzzi tub in my bedroom (came with the apartment, seemed strange at first but I love it). I get some coffee, a few good books and my ipod and just sit and read and enjoy the warmth and the jets.
Doing my makeup. On a daily basis I just use a light layer of foundation, bronzer and mascara. But sometimes, just for fun, I'll do myself all up with eyeliner and eyeshadow, just to make myself look "pretty."
Working out. I always feel better after a nice hard run. When I'm all sweaty and tired and I collapse on my floor, I just feel good about myself.
This is a great thread Nicole! I'm really glad you started it!
Posted 19 August 2008 - 07:05 AM
Posted 25 April 2009 - 11:07 PM
I always feel best during a run, and I feel great for a while afterwards. I try to always eat healthy. I drink alot of cold green tea with ginseng and honey. I use moisturizer everyday after showering. I love to get my hair done, and a mani/pedi on occasion. I use glycolic products to keep my face looking as young as possible, for as long as possible. I love the feel of a great pair of hip-hugger boot leg jeans. That's all I can think of right now.