I am 35 years old, I come from The Netherlands, have a husband and young daughter.
For the social safety of my family and the small business that I run, I din't use my real name.
Hopefully that won't be a problem.
Three years ago I regained the memories of the rape I endured by my father when I was four.
I always knew that it happened, but the detailed memories were locked.
My mother knew about it and helped to cover it up and prevent shame to the family
(from the local community, family, church and workplace. )
What is worse, is that she stayed with him, despite the abuse, 'for the sake of the children'.
Now that my father has died, she denies everything and claims 'I am confused'.
I hope to end my emotional isolation and find a group of people who know how it feels and understands.
I don't want to be alone anymore in this.
People I have tried to talk about it (including professionals) either don't want to listen or aren't able to.
Hopefully I can find myself here.
Edited by lilly1978, 27 October 2013 - 03:30 PM.