4 weeks ago today i was raped in my own home by my ex partner. That very night i went to bed celebrating 4 weeks without him . He manipulated his way into my home, i had never known him to be violent towards me so i trusted i should atleast be safe. No i wasn't , he did it and left. It was horrible, painful, aggressive and humiliating.
I reported to police the next day, it's all on. And anybody on here that has reported will know what i mean. I have good evidence, witnesses....etc
Great family, great lawyer already, great friends who i trust. But i find myself sitting here typing with tears that i cant stop. I have all this amazing support but i cant cope. I am not coping, i was already on anti depressants before the incident and will keep that going. I have my first counselling session with the appropriate networks this coming week. His arrest is not far away. I have already had 2 court appearances, I feel like on the inside i am screaming and cant stop that feeling.
I wish it had have happened to someone else, i want my old life back. I don't want to cry anymore !! i don't want to be angry anymore, i want to be able to do my job ( i cant even do that)....I am in fact HOPELESS....thats how i feel right now
sorry of this this is a really negative introduction, i have been reading for a few days and think its important for me to link in here if i can for some support.