Posting anything at all on this forum is a real step for me. For a long time, I both did and did not know what happened to me. I had all of the facts and memories. At no point did I forget or repress memories. I just didn't allow myself to think through what it all meant and name it. For nearly 20 years after the fact, I never let myself say "I am someone who was molested". I guess because if I did that, it would be real, and I would have to confront it, and let it be a part of me and my story. I didn't know if I could do that without coming apart.
But all of a sudden, I found myself putting the pieces together and admitting to what I've known this whole time: I am someone who was molested. And there's all kind of feelings and fears I'm confronting head on, and so I'm here, and I don't plan on coming apart, and I'm glad to meet all of you.
Edited by sixofswords, 07 October 2013 - 02:18 PM.