A New Name One To Help Me Remember

[RizaPheonx]

I'm changing my name. I survived nearly a decade as simply the spouse; I was just the Mrs now after nearly five years divorce he still throws ghosts at me. I wasn't meant to be but that doesn't matter; I woke up years ago and now as of last night I'm seeing truths I had avoided. I was going by a different name writing in high school and during the dark days now I rise. I will rise above the fear and panic. I will rise above the anger that still feels so alien to me. I am Riza Pheonix and I'm tired of darkness. I am not crazy or wrong I wrote and I sang my whole life till I gave up my voice. I forgot what it was to sing without fear to write without concern for in someone would take it personally and I want my voice back. I hope that here I find others who understand what it's like to be an artist who lost their passion and want it back. I don't want to be that 19 year old girl I want to take back my mind and my art from the dark and get back into the air where I belong. So I am Riza Pheonix because I seek to be reborn stronger wiser and more powerful than I have ever been.

[reglois]

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[MeBeMary]

Hello Riza Pheonix,

Welcome to AS. Sorry about the trauma you've suffered, but you seemed determined not to let it control your life. Reaching out is a big step. You will find tons of support at this site. I wish you well on your healing journey.

Mary

[RizaPheonx]

Thank you MeBeMary. I appreciate your welcome.

[spocknado]

this reads like beautiful poetry. more importantly, i applaud your willingness to take back control your life. you will rise above what you have lived through because you are already stronger, wiser, and more powerful!

[RizaPheonx]

Thank you Spocknado (Love your name btw) I spend a great deal of time and thought before I write. this habit has been a great strength for me. I use it to examine, dissect, devolve and discard those things that came from my first marriage. I also have a great deal of music that is empowering; survive, fight, and thrive oriented songs fill my day some I share with my children others are still too mature for them.

[ActivistAlly]

Welcome Riza Pheonix!!!

I love your introduction post and I hope that AS can be a helpful and safe community to collaborate with you in regaining your voice and your art as you journey towards healing! I hope you will find the members of AS to be walking alongside you every step of the way!

If you should have any questions or need help with anything I hope you'll feel free to PM (personal message) myself or any of the other NST (Newbie Support Team) members as that is why we are here!

Rock on!

Activist Ally