Reaching Out...

[maybenot]

Hello,

i am thinking about reaching out for help to someone from my church. Just to tell someone and see what I should do. But I am terrified. I am not sure that I can do it. Tell anyone. I am terrified. I'm thinking about cancelling.

I reached out for some support groups. But they were eithe ron days that I couldnt make or I had to make an appointment with a counselor. I wasnt (I am not) ready for anyone else to put an ID to what happened. I dont want the puty stares or worse, the judgment stares.

But if I dont deal with it, reach out for help i will carry this forever. The pain, fear, dullness has become a comfort. It protects me. With those I will never be in a relationship where this can happen again. Besides the above concerns, getting help could take those away. Making me vulnerable. I dont want that.

I think I just talked myself out of the appointment. I am cancelling. Please help. Please pray.

[drowningnotwaving]

Glad you are here maybenot, it's a great place to feel heard and supported and no one will judge you, people here empathise rather than sympathise, I think it's an important distinction. When you are ready you will find your voice.

[Eliz67]

Just a suggestion for a filter I use for myself - if the idea of talking to someone gives you anxiety, don't do it. It's too soon, or not the right person/place. For me I have found there are at least three places inside me that need healing: mind, body & spirit. Don't be afraid to ask for what you need in a place you feel safe, like here, for any of those topics. On the spirit side, I struggle from time to time with feeling abandoned by God, by feeling I need to be made whole again by Him, and that only He can make me feel clean in a way that no shower ever will. So instead of seeking out my church, instead I look to His word. I would be happy to share any of what I have found helpful with you, if you want.

Be good to yourself.

[~FOUND~]

Welcome!