New Member & My Story

[tiffanysurviver]

Hello, my name is Tiffany and I am 19 years old. A little over a month after I turned 16, my ex-boyfriend showed up at my house and held me down and raped me. After that, I became a serious alcoholic until I realized I missed my period and that I was pregnant. I have an almost 3 year old little boy and I have to see my rapist every week and spend 4 hours with him because he's taking me to court for custody of my child. Because I never filed a report, there's nothing I can do to protect us from him. I have never been able to get over what he did to me and how he hurt me and now he's trying to take my son away from me. I feel like I'm falling apart and I do not know how to handle it and I can't keep the silence anymore. I've never been able to tell anyone, but that needs to change now.

[mandapanda]

I'm sorry Tiffany u r having to go through this. I hope everything works out in your favor.

[reglois]

(((((Tiffany)))))))) ((((((Panda)))))) you have to be here if OK

[angelic]

Hello Tiffany

welcome to After Silence, my name is Paula and I am one of the newbie support team here. I am so sorry for what you've been going through but I am glad to see you are breaking your silence. If you need any help with the board, please let me know and I will do my best to help if I can

take care, Paula

[tiffanysurviver]

Thank you all so much. I just can't keep it bottled up anymore. I don't really know what I need or what I am doing, but I started here.

[Shannonkay]

Tiffany, When you keep something a secret, it festers in the cover of darkness that secrecy provides. You have to remember that sunlight is a disinfectant! Tell your story to someone you trust and feel totally safe with. Have you tried talking to a therapist who specializes in trauma or sexual violence? You sound lost and hopeless. You need someone to guide you through this - hold your hand, help you to heal, help you decide how to handle this horrible situation. Get help!!

[tiffanysurviver]

I can't get outside help because he could go for my medical records and try to say I'm unstable or depressed and incompetent and I can't raise my son. I can't do anything that would make it any easier for him to take him from me.

[~FOUND~]

Hi there.
Welcome to AS.

I hope you find this site to be helpful.

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