I had a weird flashback, I used to be obsessed with this guy, he ended up being the first person to say yes to, we did it, but I said yes, he had been abused too. The thing is, I keep having this flashback to the time he declared himself to me, I was so nervous, and suddenly he said: Can I kiss you?, he asked permission to kiss me and I said yes. He kissed me and his were the best kisses I ever had. And he was the only person to ask me permission to have me.
It didn't work between us, but I kept on loving him, even after he committed suicide 3 years ago. Today I went and gave him flowers. When I saw his name on the thomb stone I remembered his voice once more saying: Can I kiss you? and I said out loud Yes. Right before leaving.