RabbitDude

Trying To Start

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Hi room. I am new and am a guy, and a survivor. I'm not quite sure how to reach out yet here but will try. I have been in T since September. I know there are thousands of stories like mine, thousands of "us". I don't get the why, and never will. My sexual abuse started when I was around 5 or 6, and the verbal and physical stuff before that. It continued till I was big enough to stop it (mostly) and left home. At least the verbal and physical stuff stopped. My family doesn't know about the predators, but they sure know about the verbal and physical stuff at home. No one talks about it, and I don't get that either. There is a lot I don't get and it bites. The predators stole my innocence, but they could not take it all away and that part I still have inside. I will not give into hate, or "they" will win.


At least now I know I am not defined by who and what the bad people told me I was. Actually thanks to my T I know I was never defined by them. I was not made for the things they said I was made for, that stuff they said was the only thing I'd ever be good for. I also learned from my counselor that it does not matter anymore where I have been, only where I'm going. I'm not sure where that is yet. Sometimes things still make me cry and I don't like that, but I'm glad I found this place. The shadows can leave me alone now, and I hope they figure that out soon. They are not going to win.

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Rabbitdude,

I'm glad you are realizing none of this is your fault. My husband is also a survivor so I have a bit of a clue about what you are dealing with. And good for you for not letting them win. Take care and best wishes as you continue to find your strengths.

Becky

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Thanks, sometimes I just hate where I am, but then I try to remember that where I am now is a lot different then before, in this weird healing process. Even though it's weird and I have a lot to sort out, I know it's working too.

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Welcome to AS RabbitDude!

I'm sorry you have reason to be here but I'm glad you found AS!

I hope you will find support and safety here as you go through your healing journey! It's good to meet you!

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Welcome RabbitDude,

So happy that you are taking the steps to healing and growth. You definately are not alone.

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Thanks Activist and Crayon, I was able to talk some in chat yesterday, after pushing myself hard nt 2b a lurker. Gotta try to focus forward and not look back at the shadows. There are so few safe places on the net but I think Im feeling safe here. It may take me some time 2b kewl with everything but will try. Thanks again.

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It was a pleasure to talk to you yesterday rabbit and I'm glad you found AS....it really is a safe place. :)

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Hi there.

Welcome to AS.

i hope you find this site to be helpful.

very nice to meet you.

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