New Here....

[*lauren*]

hi....my name is lauren. i am a memeber of another site and was given this one as a new resource...

i am 22. i was sexually, emotionally, verbally and physically abused by my ex boyfriend. i became pregnant as a result of rape and lost the baby through abortion.

i have not seen him for a year, but i am still reeling from his last phone call a couple of months ago. it was about the same time that i let in the memories of the rapes and really admitted to myself that he had done what he did. that i had allowed it all.

i am freaked. i cant stop these thoughts from flying through my head. i hate him so much, but this part of me is sill very much attatched to him and i dont know why.

i smelled his soap this morning while getting dressed for work. i havent smelled it in so long, i dont know where it came from, but it was suddenly everywhere. he is haunting my waking life again...i have just started therapy...i feel so scattered even jsut writing all of this down...i just need help. i dont want him here with me anymore.

thank you for listening.

[dodo]

hi Lauren

and welcome to as

karen

[Donna]

Welcome to After Silence, ((((Lauren)))). :hug:

[Mighty]

Welcome to After Silence, ((((Lauren)))).

I hope you find the help and suppot you need here.

I'm sorry for what you been through. Lots of hugs and support.

Wishing you peace, comfort and healing.

Much love to you hun, Mighty

[Survivors sanctuary]

Welcome to AS, I hope that you find it can help to be here ..

[Rapunzel]

Hi lauren,

I've been here less than 48 hours and I've had such a warm welcome. This is a great site and a wonderful group....i hope you find the peace you deserve here.

Rapunzel

[drowning000]

hey lauren, im sure ull find this place very comforting! its wonderful and that support is amazing.. sorry to no ur here for a reason.

Racheal

[Charlene]

welcome to the boards

~charlene~

[~Catherine~]

Welcome to AS!

Catherine

[tealight rookie]

Welcome to AS sweetie

Ruthie

[Jessie]

Welcome to After Silence Lauren. Sorry for what you've been through. Luv Jess