Back Again

[flicka]

I joined a couple years ago.. then kind of disappeared after a few months..

Back again.. trying to deal with the fact that I am engaged (he's amazing!).. yet the issues I have due to the SA by my former fiancée are now popping back up.. still looking for the ways to cope and trust him 100% (I DO trust him.. but I still have my doubts and the occasional panic attack )

soooo uhhhhh hi again everyone!

[libbyluv86]

Welcome back! Hope AS can help or at least, we'll try too!

[nothingsweet]

flicka

you back

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Welcome back!

[moonstream]

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Thinking of you.

Found

[sisterinsurvival]

Welcome back, flicka. I am sorry that you are struggling with these issues. Hopefully, in some way, you can find support and strength here to help you get past this.

[whimsical1]

welcome back to after-silence.

[flicka]

thanks everyone

I posted this and had a busy couple of weeks so I didn't get back on til tonight (when I should be sleeping since I have to be at work in 6 hours) lol

the hubby-to-be had asked a few days ago if one day I could tell him what happened that night.. I told him maybe one day and then decided to just dig through and copy the story I had shared on here and emailed it to him.. told him if he wanted could discuss after he reads but at this point I could not/do not wish to dig through and bring up all the old memories about it but would try to any any questions/comments he has about it..

I understand why he wants to know.. he is trying *not* to trigger me and he hasn't triggered me during physical contact but has through comments a few times..

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You're welcome.