Hi

[LilBit]

Im not new as in a new member ive been here for a while just only posted a few times... im not big on talking... but i want to start... ok rephrase that i NEED to start... i think my therapist is getting annoyed with me altho he says he's not ... i know im annoyed with me.. i just try to talk but nothing comes out.. i feel like i fail at therapy... and life but thats a different subject... so i guess i just am looking for help.. or something.. idk... im so lost...........

[dodo]

Hi and welcome back to AS

best wishes

karen

[LilBit]

thanks... hopefuly this time i can get more into this... something has to change i cant keep going like this....

[~FOUND~]

Hi there.

Welcome to AS.

I hope you find this site to be helpful.

Found

[Wishy]

Hello I understand what a struggle that can be.

[LilBit]

thanks everyone...

i have therapy in 2 days and i have no idea what to do ..

[sisterinsurvival]

Hi LilBit,

My name is Lynn, and I am a member of the New Member Support Team. I just wanted to take the time to say welcome to After Silence.

I hope that you find comfort and support here. I am glad that you have joined with us and look forward to getting to know you. If you need anything or have questions about the boards or how something works, please send me a personal message. I will gladly help in any way possible...also if you need someone to listen, let me know.

Perhaps, if you wrote down what was bothers you the most over the next couple of days, you might have something to discuss in therapy...thoughts, feelings, what upsets you, etc.

I can feel your sense of despair...or lostness, and I know what it feels like to want to work through what you have dealt with. How long have you been in counseling?

Take care,

Edited July 7, 2010 by sisterinsurvival

[~FOUND~]

I hope you are finding your way around the boards ok.

Found

[LilBit]

Hi LilBit,

My name is Lynn, and I am a member of the New Member Support Team. I just wanted to take the time to say welcome to After Silence.

I hope that you find comfort and support here. I am glad that you have joined with us and look forward to getting to know you. If you need anything or have questions about the boards or how something works, please send me a personal message. I will gladly help in any way possible...also if you need someone to listen, let me know.

Perhaps, if you wrote down what was bothers you the most over the next couple of days, you might have something to discuss in therapy...thoughts, feelings, what upsets you, etc.

I can feel your sense of despair...or lostness, and I know what it feels like to want to work through what you have dealt with. How long have you been in counseling?

Take care,

i wish even i knew what was bothering me but i dont... i have no clue... most of the time i just dont care and i want to die... i mean i have a son and im happily married what more could i want... but something doesnt allow me to be happy... i love them so much and i fight for them i live for them but i just want to give up.. i feel they would be so much better off if i was gone... i know that sounds stupid but tell my brain that.... it wont listen to me.... ive attempted it serveral times before i relise what ive done its like i do it with out knowing.. that prolly sounds so stupid and ur like whatever how can you do that with out knowing but i wish i could explain it...

i have been in and out of counseling my whole life i never talked and i dont like too so i never gaave it any try and then i would just keep tryingto kill myself and someone always saved me rushed me to the hospital and id get hospitalized i would do what ever it took say what ever i had to just to get out then go back to being me quit taking meds... this is the first time ive ever really tried at therapy.. ive been seeing him for 2 years but im a chicken at the whole talking thing.. he tries everything i just freeze up... he has been doing hypno therapy just so that ill keep coming in cause the talking thing dont work for me... im so lame...

thanks for the support.. i feel like this is gonna be my one last shot if i even allow myself that.... im so ready to just give up.... but i dont know what to even try to work on i dont know how... im lost im frusterated im depressed as hell... and i dont know.. im just ugh.......

i see him tomorrow.. but i dont want to because i dont want to go in there and just be another dissappointment.... i feel like quitting him.. life ... everything.... but the one thing that keeps me saying try one more thing is my son and my husband... but im running out of one more things......

i hope this dont bother anyone i dont mean to whine.... im sorry

[MysticsRaiN]

Hi Lilbit

[LilBit]

Hi Lilbit

Hi :0)

how are you...? nice to meet ya...

[LilBit]

Hi LilBit,

My name is Lynn, and I am a member of the New Member Support Team. I just wanted to take the time to say welcome to After Silence.

I hope that you find comfort and support here. I am glad that you have joined with us and look forward to getting to know you. If you need anything or have questions about the boards or how something works, please send me a personal message. I will gladly help in any way possible...also if you need someone to listen, let me know.

Perhaps, if you wrote down what was bothers you the most over the next couple of days, you might have something to discuss in therapy...thoughts, feelings, what upsets you, etc.

I can feel your sense of despair...or lostness, and I know what it feels like to want to work through what you have dealt with. How long have you been in counseling?

Take care,

now ive gone and really messed up.... i canceled my appt for tomorrow ... i just dont want to waste his time.. but sometimes just going to his office is the only thing that gets me through.. why do i always do this to myself......

[abbyann]

Hello LilBit!

It is difficult to speak about these feelings and admit how much we are hurting. Since my attack I have not been able to see any male doctors and any counselor would have to be female also. I used to go to a male doctor but I cannot now. This crime effects so much of our lives.

I am new here also and hope that you find solace here and know that we are not alone.

[whimsical1]

welcome lilbit.

[LilBit]

thanks everyone... i did end up going..