Did It Really Happen

[hayhay09]

I'm new here and don't even know where to begin. Deep down I've always known I was sexually abused when I was younger, I just never admitted it until a few months ago, I told my mom. But did it really happen?? I recall some things, but not everything. Am I making stuff up in my head, or is it reality? It explains so much of why I am the way I am today, but I hate the fact that I feel like I just don't know for sure. I've tried seeing counselors, but I don't open up and quit going after 2 or 3 times and think I can do this on my own. What can I do? I feel so lost...so confused???

[azazo]

I don't think you are making anything up Hon, there is little reason for us to tell these things to our parents and stuff. I think maybe trying to stick it out with a counselor or T would be a good idea as well as sticking around here to read or post your issues.

Hang in there hon, you have to face everything in order to learn how to deal with it. It can be done, but takes time.

HUGS

[sisterinsurvival]

Hi,

My name is Lynn, and I am a member of the New Member Support Team. I just wanted to take the time to say welcome to After Silence. I have read and studied some on the issue of false memories...and many counselors have come to accept that, more often than not, what a client recalls is not something that she just thought up...but has its base in our real life experiences. While it may be easier to accept that you are making something dreadful up...perhaps you are not. No one but you can find that truth for yourself. I struggle with bits and pieces of memories myself and at times am bothered considerably by them. Please know that you are not along in struggling with this.

I am glad that you have joined with us and look forward to getting to know you. If you need anything or have questions about the boards or how something works, please send me a personal message. I will gladly help in any way possible...also if you need someone to listen, let me know.

Take care,

Edited March 22, 2009 by sisterinsurvival

[whimsical1]

Welcome to AS.

[itssnowballing]

Welcome to AS

I know how confusing it can be sometimes,

Hang in there

[tuliptorn]

Welcome to AS Heyhey!!!

[hayhay09]

Thanks to all of you! I have really enjoyed being here so far and am actually excited to see where this can take me in my recovery!

[deepgreensandblues]

Hey hayhay!

I just want to welcome you to AS! I know you will find lots of help and healing here. I just joined a few months ago because I just couldn't convince myself anymore that the csa didn't really happen. I have not been brave enough to tell my mother yet (my abuser was my father). Anyway, if you ever need to talk, I am here!

deep