New Here. Not Yet Sure What I Hope To Get Out Of This Experience

[Kat323]

Hello Everyone,

I've enjoyed reading everyone's posts, and you seem to be a very welcoming and understanding group. Thank you in advance for your support.

My name is Kat. I know why I'm here, but not sure how much I will be able to share. I may just observe for some time. Although I've come to terms with and completely understand what has happened, and that it's not my fault, I can't seem to communicate with others about it. I've never shared any details with anyone. I know it's caused me a lot of anger, pain, and the destruction of a few relationships.

For fear of: not being respected, believed, appearing to be weak, not being in control, having to make my stories public, discussing humiliating details, being looked at as the reason this happened, losing people I care about, and so on. I've never told anyone. If it's only me who knows then I don't have to risk those things. I've been great at hiding these things from everyone, but it's really starting to destroy me inside.

I'd love to be free of these burdens. I'd love to be able to help others who are suffering, but I can't even start thinking about what happened without breaking down, let alone guide someone else through their own suffering.

It's really time to heal. It's going to be slow, but thank you for your support.

[angelic]

Hi and welcome to AS

[whimsical1]

Kat, and welcome to AS!

[ShoePanda]

We're glad to help, and there's no time limit. Welcome to our community.

[Isurvived]

Hi, and welcome to AS, I am very sorry for what you are going through, when you are ready to share we will be here to listen, I'm glad that you have found us, if i can do anything pls feel free to pm me anytime... if okay?

Paulie

[Kat323]

Thank you.

[sisterinsurvival]

Hi,

My name is Lynn, and I am a member of the New Member Support Team. I just wanted to take the time to say welcome to After Silence.

I am glad that you have joined with us and look forward to getting to know you. If you need anything or have questions about the boards or how something works, please send me a personal message. I will gladly help in any way possible...also if you need someone to listen, let me know.

Take care,

[itssnowballing]

Kat

[FLGIRL8708]

Welcome to AS

[deepgreensandblues]

Hey Kat,

Welcome to AS! Take your time in sharing what you feel comfortable with. You can heal!!!

deep

[tuliptorn]

Hello Kat. Welcome to AS!