Darla Posted January 25, 2009 Hi, I'm new here. I am 31 and have just started seeling a counciler for the first time, I am not looking forward to it very frightend and not sleeping well but when I do I have vivid dreams that are so frightening I am frightend to sleep. I don't trust people and I really dislike men, I know not all men are bad, but why take the risk? I have never told anyone my story. People know I have been raped as a child but no one knows the true extent of how bad it was and just what happend to me. I don't know if I can tell anyone. I am worried people will not treat me the same. I thought I would join here and see what other people think and if anyone feels the same as me? I cant move on with my life, but I really dont see how I will ever be able to trust people. I hate even being around people and I take a dislike to someone very easy. I dont give people a chance. I know I am not a nice person and I dont want people to like me. If people get close to me I run a mile. I have one person in my life and she means alot to me and I trust her. She seems to like me but I have NO idea why she would, I dont treat her well. I dont even know if any of this makes sense. Sorry Claire Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Becky Posted January 25, 2009 Hello Claire and welcome to After Silence Everything you have said makes perfect sense and you have come to a place where you will be understood and supported. I'm sorry you have been hurt so badly and I don't blame you for not trusting people! We all struggle with that! I am glad you found us, take your time and make yourself at home! Becky Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Darla Posted January 25, 2009 Hi Becky and Thankyou Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
zatbad Posted January 25, 2009 (edited) Hi Becky and Thankyou Hi Claire I understand I have a really hard time getting close to people. Edited January 25, 2009 by zatbad Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Teardrop1986 Posted January 25, 2009 Hello and welcome to AS xxx Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
sisterinsurvival Posted January 25, 2009 Hi Claire, My name is Lynn, and I am a member of the New Member Support Team. I just wanted to take the time to say welcome to After Silence. I am glad that you have joined with us and look forward to getting to know you. If you need anything or have questions about the boards or how something works, please send me a personal message. I will gladly help in any way possible...also if you need someone to listen, let me know. Take care, Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Hellion Posted January 25, 2009 I can completely relate to everything you just said. Everyone here is so supportive and is here to listen. I hope you find the support you need. Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Rhea333 Posted January 26, 2009 I can completely relate to everything you just said. Everyone here is so supportive and is here to listen. I hope you find the support you need. Hi and welcome. im new too. I have so much of an issue with trusting ppl but I am trying to work on that and thats all we can do. Hear to listen and be supportive in any way I can. Take care Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
whimsical1 Posted January 26, 2009 Claire, and welcome to AS! Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Darla Posted January 26, 2009 Thankyou everyone that is really nice :-) xx Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
aperson Posted January 26, 2009 Welcome to AS Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
prezioso Posted January 26, 2009 Welcome to AS!! im glad you found us! Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Survivors sanctuary Posted January 27, 2009 Welcome to the board ... Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
silenced42long Posted February 3, 2009 Hi and Welcome to AS!! Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
