Hello...i'm Jen...

[JenNOM]

Hi! My name is Jen. I'm a single stay at home mom of 3 (ages 8.5, almost 7 and 5 years). I run a preschool from home, am very active in my church and love to work with photos.

I've decided that tells more about me than this...I was sexually abused as a child and in an abusive relationship with my husband for nearly 10 years.

The abusive marriage I have been dealing with (instead of living in) for a year and a half. Just over a year ago my husband left our home. He's working on him...I'm working on me...we'll see about divorce.

For the past 1ish months I have been working on the sexually abused part...or should I say coming to grips with. It's not something I remembered...it's not something I want to deal with and more importantly it is something that, at the moment, feels like is taking over my life.

That is what brings me here. I have a wonderful therapist and a great support network. But my dear friends have families of their own and I need more support than even the best support network can give.

So here I am.

[fightergirl]

Hi Jen! welcome to AS! we are all here to support you! Im sorry about all that brings you here! :hug::hug:

[oui,mais]

hey!!

welcome to AS!!

if ok?

[aperson]

I am sorry for what brought you here but glad you found us.

Welcome to AS!!!!

[cool1]

Hi Jen,

Welcome to AS.

[sisterinsurvival]

Hi Jen,

My name is Lynn, and I am a member of the New Member Support Team. I just wanted to take the time to say welcome to After Silence.

I hope that you find comfort and support here. I know that I have found the strength to face another day many times through the words and presence of those dear ones who make this site a true "community." I am glad that you have joined with us and look forward to getting to know you. If you need anything or have questions about the boards or how something works, please send me a personal message. I will gladly help in any way possible...also if you need someone to listen, let me know.

Take care,

Your Sister in Survival,

Lynn

[angelic]

Hi and welcome to AS

[whimsical1]

Jen, and welcome to AS!

[asianharmony]

Welcome aboard glad you found your way

[azazo]

Hi Jen. I am so sorry you need to be here but this is a great place for support.

I know how painful it is to deal with SA but you are doing the right thing by talking about it. Letting it out is very therapeutic and this is a long journey, so be patient with yourself and don't push yourself too hard.

We're here to listen when you are ready to talk.

HUGS

[Peacegirl]

Welcome to AS Jen! I'm glad that you're taking time for you and that you have a great support system. Since members are from all around the world, there is almost always someone on to talk to or to post and get feedback soon. Take gentle care of yourself and see you around the boards!

Lindsay

[kimbees324]

Jen,

I am really sorry for the things that led you here but I am glad that you found your way to AS. Take your time and look around; I am sure that you will be feeling comfortable and at home in no time. There are so many great people here who will offer you the support and encouragement you are looking for and deserve. I look forward to seeing you around the board.

Take good care of yourself, ok?

[giselleflores]

High! Jen I'm Giselle welcome to the site.

[noemotion]

Jen

You say that you don't want to deal with the issue.

I have to tell you that you have to - for the sake of those who you love and your family.

I too did not want help, but it came to the point where my marriage was in trouble and the dog did not want to get near me.

I was such a angry person and still am.

But I am on such great medications to help me control my anger and calm me down.

I was yelling at coworkers for no reason, same with my husband no reason.

The abuses that I suffered had nothing to do with them, yet they were the brunt of my anger.

I am now dealing with the issue and I too have a great therapist and he is helping me so much.

And he is so comforting, telling me its ok to be angry but I have to control it, and that I dont have to forgive those who hurt me that I can be angry with them, just not at them.

And he is teaching me to love myself which is something that I have not done.

All my life my mother and brothers and ex partners told me I was no good

I am good

[silenced42long]

Hi and Welcome to AS!!