Hello Everyone

[Jennifer1084]

Hi, My name is Jennifer. I am 21. I just recently came across this website and thought I would see what it was all about. Well I have been struggling alot lately. I have an extensive history of childhood abuse (well I can't even say what kind). Then I also have recently been assaulted this year actually. It has been really difficult for me. I was assaulted in the beginning of may and it was pretty bad. I also have DID so I don't remember the actual assault, I think because I dissociated. But then when I came back, I was bleeding so bad. I was bleeding so much I had to go to the ER and they couldn't stop the bleeding and so I had emergency surgery. If I would have bled anymore, they would have given me a blood transfusion. I had surgery at 2 am and I was in surgery for 3 hours. I had no clue then what happened, I just thought something normal took place and that something just happened. But then I was in the hospital for 4 days. I was told then that they reported it to the police and there was going to be an investigation. So the next week after this happened, I talked to the investigator and they asked me what I wanted to happen, then I had no clue what had taken place, so I wasn't sure. But then I saw the doctor that did my surgery later that afternoon. He then told me more about what happened. He told me that something had to of been used and that it went through the wall, through my abdominal cavity and was out by my bowels. I did have some internal bleeding as well. The doctor told me that this guy had done this and that he had assaulted me. So then I called the investigator and talked to him about what I learned and he didn't know what would happen, he had mentioned something about 3rd degree assault. But I didn't know it was this serious and I asked him if it could be a greater charge. Then later on I was talking with the county attorney's office and they ended up telling me they were not going to charge him with anything at all. So I then asked to talk to a county attorney and they told me the same thing. It's because there is no way of proving that I didn't just say ok to him doing that. But they did end up charging him with 3rd degree assault. But he went to court and they only ended up giving him one day in jail. So he got one day in jail while I got hurt this bad. Plus I had to go to wound care at the hospital everyday for 3 months because the wound was a dirty wound and got infected. So then I guess it's just all kind of been difficult for me. That is they reason why I found all this. Well I hope to chare more with all of you and get to know you.

Jennifer

[Kingfisher]

Welcome, Jennifer, may you find here what you are looking for

Have strength of heart of spirit

Kingfisher

[dodo]

Hi and welcome to AS

best wishes

karen

[determined 1]

Welcome to AS love, you are needed here with us.

Your a fighter, I'd say your recovery proves that.

We are here now for you to lean on, please pm me anytime.

Blessings,"D"

Edited October 14, 2007 by determined 1

[sadeyes22]

Hi welcome to AS I hope you find what you are looking for here. This is a wonderful place for support. I look forward to seeing you around the boards. Take care

:hug:

Sad

[angelic]

Welcome Jennifer, good to have you with us

[gemini26]

hi and welcome. so sorry to hear what u have been through. there is a lot of support here.

-mandy

[Jennifer1084]

Thank you all for your kind words. I am just really trying to get through everything and I know it's going to be a long road but I also know that I will make it. I am just going through alot right now. It's all just a long story. I don't know. Anyway, I hope to continue to hear from all of you and to respond the best as I can and give support to all.

Jennifer

[Saltywaters]

Welcome!!

Jo

[teazle]

Hi and welcome to AS

I hope you find what you're looking for here

take care of yourself

teazle

[Lindy]

Hi Jennifer,

Welcome to After Silence.

I hope that you will find comfort and healing as many of us have found here.

Take gentle care,

Lindy

[emma19]

jennifer,

i am so sorry to hear what you have been thru. having been thru childhood abuse and then to be assaulted now, does get complicated. all those feelings from when you were younger get all stirred up again. no wonder you dissociated.

sounds like the last few months have been real tough, with the physical healing you had to do as well.someone ,in there responces to you ,said you were a fighter and i have to agree. you have a strong spirit ,i think.and you are not silent. important step,speaking up. i am proud of you. take care.glad you found this site.we are here. emma19

[John]

Hey Jennifer,

I'm really am sorry that all this happen to you, it must have been really hard for you. The person that did this to you is scum, just remember that you are so much better then him. I'm sorry for you having to gone though this but I hope you do find the help you need here.

Welcome to AS, I think you are so brave for come here.

-biggestfoot-

[Jennifer1084]

Thank you everyone, really, it makes me feel better knowing that there is someone here that cares. I have been just searching for ways to find support and to get to talk to others who have been through similar things. I am just so glad that I have that opportunity now. I am hopeful that life will get bettere, it is just a little hard right now and I will succeed. well anyway, I am no longer keeping silent about anything. I am going to fight and I am going to beat this, it will not get me!

Jennifer

[probably]

Welcome to AS Jeniffer

[sisterinsurvival]

Yahoo, !
We love you, and are glad you've found AfterSilence!