Hi

[Aphrodite]

****Trigger Warning****

Hi,

I'm new to this. I really am not sure if I was molested or not, but sometimes during sex I get a sick feeling in my stomache which reminds me of when I was a kid. I cry during sex alot as well. I also relate to many movies about sexual abuse. When I was a kid I would be afraid of men. My dad would always have his drunken friends over and once when I was 13 one of them tried to touch me, but my dad screamed at him. I used to draw pictures of naked people when I was very young and had a a few sexual experiences with my friend when I was 8, that I used to masturbate too. During highschool I had a boyfriend who what I would consider a sex addict violate me with objects and didn't wait until I was ready. I later had guys use me for sex. One guy chained me up and did S&M on me and forced a dildo in my anal region. I ended up crying. Then he was mean and screamed at me. I had another boyfriend call me a w**re all the time and treated me like one. I get obsessed with sex now, but cry afterward and always feel numb and sick after it happens. I was wondering if these are signs.

Edited April 4, 2007 by Kelly

[Atlantis]

Hello, welcome to AS. I'm sorry to hear that you have gone through such a traumatic time. You'll find a lot of kind understanding people here.

Take care.

Atlantis

[Survivors sanctuary]

Welcome to AS, I hope you find it a helpful place to be ..

[Firedancer4]

Welcome to AS, hon. It's hard to answer, "Yes, those are signs," but it's clear you've had some things happen to you that shouldn't have happened, and were not your fault. I also understand some of what you shared with re: to sex and feeling numb and sick after it. I know it's confusing. I'm glad you're here. It's a great place for support and understanding and acceptance. I hope you find what you're looking for, and I hope you'll let us support you as you heal.

Take care of you.

[~Mandy~]

Welcome to AS.

Take Care

Mandy

[Guest]

Welcome to AS. I'm sorry you went through those things.

[Katia60]

Hi,

Welcome to AS. I'm sorry for all that you have gone through. Yes those sound like aftereffects. Have you read "the courage to heal"? Try that, it can help you sort out some of the issues.

Kate

[holdingthechild26]

Hello there and Welcome to AS, I hope you find all that you are looking for here..this is a great group of individual. So once again Welcome!!

[selene]

Hallo

It's so difficult when part of your memory is missing...

[Aphrodite]

Thank you all for welcoming me.

[AmyLyn]

Late...but I'll add my welcome as well.

It is tough when memories are missing...I hope you can become more clear and heal.

take care of yourself.

[afireinside]

Late also. Hi and welcome to AS.

[Winter45]

Another late hello as well. I hope you find this place healing.

kristal

[teazle]

Hi aphrodite

welcome to AS, I hope you can find what you're looking for here

take care of yourself

teazle