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I've spent all my adult life trying to work out why I've been so messed up when it comes to men! I'm 33 now. Its only in the last week (when a male friend made a joke about sex) that I suddenly connected my insecurities and paranoia with the fact my dad (allegedly) raped my step-sisters (which he told me about on my 14th birthday), I was raped on the day I graduated and again 4 years ago. I never told anybody at the time or spoke about this with anyone since until the weekend when I blurted out that I had been raped (to my friend after the 'joke' - where did that come from??!!).

I have never had a trusting relationship with a man and after I wrote up what happened to me and read it back, everything suddenly became clear and I realised I need some help! I was also ill (I'm not normally ill) but the pains were exactly the same as after the rapes - is this my warped mind playing tricks on me or has anyone else encountered physical pain when they start to address issues?!

I want to take the next few steps to being able to think/say with pride and confidence "I'M A SURVIVOR AND PROUD!"

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Greetings and welcome to After Silence my dear!

I’m glad you found us.. I think you will find that this is a very friendly and supportive place to be. I hope you find it incredibly helpful as I have. :)

I’m looking forward to seeing you around the forums and getting to know you a little better.

Feel free to PM me if you ever need to talk. I’m always here to listen.

Take care and best wishes for 2007 hun :hug:

Much love from Leah XxX

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Welcome to AS.

I get memories from time to time. I remembered about 7 years ago and made connections as you have done here.

I hope you find what you are looking for here


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