I'm New To All This!

[kim33]

Hi,

I've spent all my adult life trying to work out why I've been so messed up when it comes to men! I'm 33 now. Its only in the last week (when a male friend made a joke about sex) that I suddenly connected my insecurities and paranoia with the fact my dad (allegedly) raped my step-sisters (which he told me about on my 14th birthday), I was raped on the day I graduated and again 4 years ago. I never told anybody at the time or spoke about this with anyone since until the weekend when I blurted out that I had been raped (to my friend after the 'joke' - where did that come from??!!).

I have never had a trusting relationship with a man and after I wrote up what happened to me and read it back, everything suddenly became clear and I realised I need some help! I was also ill (I'm not normally ill) but the pains were exactly the same as after the rapes - is this my warped mind playing tricks on me or has anyone else encountered physical pain when they start to address issues?!

I want to take the next few steps to being able to think/say with pride and confidence "I'M A SURVIVOR AND PROUD!"

[dodo]

Hi and welcome to AS

best wihses

karen

[Donna]

Welcome to AS.

[Amelia]

Hi Kim... welcome to AS

[Leah™]

Greetings and welcome to After Silence my dear!

I’m glad you found us.. I think you will find that this is a very friendly and supportive place to be. I hope you find it incredibly helpful as I have.

I’m looking forward to seeing you around the forums and getting to know you a little better.

Feel free to PM me if you ever need to talk. I’m always here to listen.

Take care and best wishes for 2007 hun

Much love from Leah XxX

[drowning000]

Welcome to AS i hope you like it here!

[holdingthechild26]

Welcome to AS, glad to have you here this is a great group of caring people.

[teazle]

Hi kim

welcome to AS. I hope you find what you're looking for here

take care of yourself

teazle

[Katia60]

Hi,

Great job of making the connections. Making connections brings good healing.

I'm glad that you are here.

Kate

[Karolina]

Welcome to AS:)

[whitedove]

Welcome to AS.

I get memories from time to time. I remembered about 7 years ago and made connections as you have done here.

I hope you find what you are looking for here

Whitedove