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[Jen]

Hi. I'm Jen and I'm new here. I'm 28, married and have 2 small boys (6 and 1). I have been in therapy off and on since my oldest was born. I've been on an almost 2 year hiatus from therapy since my 2nd was born. I never really talked much when I went. I just recently took the leap back into therapy. I went for my 2nd session this past Monday with my former therapist. She's in a new office and it seems as if my insurance isn't going to cover seeing her so I'm really not sure where I'm going from here.

I have suffered with depression all my life I think. I've been diagnose with PTSD, Depression and DID. My current therapist has suggested that I see a DID specialist if my insurance stuff doesn't work out with her. I'm extremely nervous about having to start all over again with someone new. We've finally made it to a point where trust is a little easier and it just sucks.

Anyway, my therapist suggested I find some support outside of therapy. She said if I'm going to start this up again, I need a support system. My husband has always been great support but sometimes, I think I need someone who can truly understand so, here I am. I'm fighting right now to stay up but the reason I decided to go back into therapy is because I can tell that things are changing. I just feel like the depression is creeping back in and that it's time I deal with my past. I have to do this for me and for my kids. I need some support and I hope this is the place for me.

Thanks for being here,

Jen

[faith]

Welcome! You will find support here.

[Jen]

Thank you! I hope so!

Edited July 1, 2006 by Jen

[Breathe Beautiful]

Welcome to After Silence

[Jen]

Thank you!

[Donna]

Welcome to AS Jen, make yourself right at home.

[Jen]

Thank you!

It's scary being in a new place. On one hand, I'm sad so many are here but on the other hand, it's good to know that I am not alone.

[dodo]

Hi and welcome to AS

best wishes

Karen

[Lindy]

Welcome to After Silence, Jen.

[Moonshine]

Welcome to AS Jen! You definitely find a lot of support and amazing people here! I know I have!

[foxy]

Hi Jen,

Welcome to AS. I'm hope you find the support that you looking for.

[Jen]

Thanks everyone! I'm already feeling very welcome. Looking foward to being here and getting to know folks

[heathbar]

WELCOME

[Survivors sanctuary]

Welcome to AS ...

[Guest]

Welcome to AS!

[Lene]

Welcome to AS Jen.I'm sure you will find lots of support here

Lene x

[Jen]

Thanks! It's great to feel so welcomed!

[Venia]

Hi Jen, I am glad you found us

Welcome to after silence

Meg

[almosthere]

hello Jen!! i am feeling exactly as you are right now.im new here as well and everyone is very nice.its good to write and get things out too.i feel depression creeping up on me as well again.its like just when u think u have your mind under control it starts again.hang in there. i need to start therapy again as well.but i have a hard time finding that connection with them.i feel like its all about the money,looking at watches ect.i had the best therapist in the world last year and she passed away from cancer.she made me feel alive and special.i doubt i will find anyone like her again but maybe i can get the support i need here,like you its nice to know we are not alone or crazy,because you can read other peoples lives and know they think and feel exactly the same as you.so welcome !!! look forward to hearing from you. Eva-aka "almosthere"

[Cat2005]

Welcome to AS sugar I hope you find all the help and support that you are looking for

Cat

[Jen]

hello Jen!! i am feeling exactly as you are right now.im new here as well and everyone is very nice.its good to write and get things out too.i feel depression creeping up on me as well again.its like just when u think u have your mind under control it starts again.hang in there. i need to start therapy again as well.but i have a hard time finding that connection with them.i feel like its all about the money,looking at watches ect.i had the best therapist in the world last year and she passed away from cancer.she made me feel alive and special.i doubt i will find anyone like her again but maybe i can get the support i need here,like you its nice to know we are not alone or crazy,because you can read other peoples lives and know they think and feel exactly the same as you.so welcome !!! look forward to hearing from you. Eva-aka "almosthere"

I'm sorry to hear you lost your therapist. I can't imagine how hard that would be dealing with that much less all the other stuff we deal with. I hope you're able to find someone else. I understand it does seem like it's all about the money and time. It should be easier for those of us who have been hurt to find the qualified help we need and it not cause us more stress and pain. I was talking with my DH earlier about how unfair it is that some criminals end up in prison and everything is paid for them like medical stuff, if they need therapy, etc. because our taxes help pay for it and yet someone like me is struggling to raise a family, can't hold a job because of the problems I have from a life of abuse and no one will help us financially with a therapist. Just doesn't seem fair.

Anyway, thank you for understanding. I hope this place is a good resource for you too!

[Jen]

Thank you all again! I hope to have time to start posting more soon!

[selene]

Welcome

Read your story and thought I'd say hi here as well

Selene

[Jen]

Thank you