Naomi Posted June 12, 2006 Share Posted June 12, 2006 Hi there! I'm Naomi from Jerusalem, Israel. I joined a few minutes ago after seeing a link on LiveJournal. I've been a member of pandys for a couple years and have found it very helpful, and I'm sure that this site will be just as warm and supportive A bit about myself: I'm 22 (almost 23) years old, single, living alone. I recently was released from a 4 month stay in hospital for an ED and anxiety issues and have made some progress but am still very much in turmoil. I have some eating issues and often have panic attacks which tend to cripple me emotionally as they occur. I have been told by a few doctors/mental health professionals that my case is not psychiatric in nature; rather, it is psychological, meaning that pills don't do nothin' for me. Why am I here? I was in an... unhealthy relationship two years ago with a very, very controling woman. I would rather not go into any details now, but suffice to say that a month after that relationship ended my eating disorder began. Over the past two years the flashbacks have mostly subsided but the aftereffects remain: disordered eating, panic attacks etc. I have never been quite healthy, mentally. My psych's have agreed that my father was very emotionally abusive towards me and I grew up with very intense self hatred. I can't seem to shake the belief, the knowledge that I deserve pain, suffering, torture. I feel that I deserve all the hurt I can give myself and whatever others can dish out as well. Needless to say, this has led to some unhealthy behaviors. On the bright side I've stopped cutting (over 2 months without!) and I've been using a cream that has been making my scars melt away. I'm ok with walking around with t-shirts and tank-tops and sometimes even feel self-confident. During my hospitalisation I gained a lot of insight into the sources of many of my problems (from the eating to the panic attacks to the self hate) and hope to continue that progress outside. Anyway, I guess that's enough of an introduction. Nice to meet you all! Link to post
Marley Posted June 12, 2006 Share Posted June 12, 2006 I am new here too. I just wanted to say Hi! It sounds like you have been through so much and I hope you are proud of yourself and how far you have come to be where you are now. I look forward to getting to know you better. Marley Link to post
vowelgal Posted June 12, 2006 Share Posted June 12, 2006 welcome to AS. you are right this is a comforting, warm and supportive environment. make yourself at home Link to post
Naomi Posted June 12, 2006 Author Share Posted June 12, 2006 Thank you two so much! I really needed a warm, happy welcome tonight. Link to post
Lindy Posted June 12, 2006 Share Posted June 12, 2006 Hi Naomi Welcome to After Silence. Link to post
Horses4Healing Posted June 12, 2006 Share Posted June 12, 2006 Welcome to As, Naomi. Ashleigh Link to post
dodo Posted June 12, 2006 Share Posted June 12, 2006 Hi and welcome to AS Best wishes Karen Link to post
thriver Posted June 12, 2006 Share Posted June 12, 2006 Welcome to AS, Naomi! And, may I just say...you deserve light, love, beauty, peace and comfort! Link to post
LivingLife Posted June 13, 2006 Share Posted June 13, 2006 Hi Naomi, Welcome to AS. Addie Link to post
splitperson3 Posted June 13, 2006 Share Posted June 13, 2006 welcome to AS Naomi...sorry again about talking so much about my issues tonight in the chat room...sometimes i get carried away...i hope you were able to talk after i left...take care and i hope you get what you need in this place....kevyn Link to post
mariposa Posted June 14, 2006 Share Posted June 14, 2006 Welcome I hope you find this place as safe and warm as i do Daniela. Link to post
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