New & Nervous but Hopeful

[Moudi]

Hi. I'm new to this forum, not exactly sure how it all works, there seem to be a bunch of communication methods here. I guess I'll figure it out. I'm dying of nerves just writing this. But I'm so weary of feeling so alone in carrying my child sexual abuse history for so many decades. I've had lots of counseling which has helped and probably why I'm still around to write this post. But I've never had the occasion to talk with anyone who really understands my story because he/she lived it too, and what it's like to make your way as an adult when your childhood took such a left turn. Healing seems to ebb and flow, at least for me. Is that true for anyone else? Anyway, I'm looking forward - despite my terror - to talking about this, finding some validation from ya'll that I'm not broken, not crazy, that maybe I can find sustainable peace and maybe even joy, in the life I have left. And maybe, I can provide similar comfort to others, that would be so fulfilling. Thanks for reading. 

Edited February 26, 2023 by Moudi

[Six_times_seven]

@Moudi the trauma you endured was undeserved and unfair.  However, I am glad that you found your way here.  There are many of us here who will relate to your experiences.  Feel free to take your time and look around, interact where you feel comfortable.  
 

I agree the healing journey does have and ebb and flow to it.   
 

  

[MeBeMary]

Hi Moudi.

Welcome to AfterSilence. I am very sorry for the trauma you have endured and the struggles you have faced. It's so unfair and undeserved. You have found a very supportive site tho, with many understanding and kind members. You are not alone.

Ebb and flow seems to be a good way to describe healing. We just hope for my flow over time. 

You were brave to post your first post. Take your time and look around, as well. Interact where you feel the most comfortable. 

Wishing you the best on your path of healing.

Mary

 

[Dawn76]

Hi @Moudi , welcome to after silence. I'm so sorry for the trauma you have been through that has brought you to us. You are not crazy and you are not broken, and you aren't alone. AS is a safe space, with so many understanding, caring people willing to listen and offer suport. I hope you find it helpful to be here.

[Moudi]

Thank you all for the kind words of welcome and support. I'm glad I found this space. I feel hopeful about the offered support and also the opportunity to be supportive. I'll be spending some time looking around and will eventually jump in more actively. I do have many questions about navigating life to a happy place. In the meantime, for today I'm grateful for this group and for the warming weather -- you'll find me dusting off my kayak...

[awi]

Hi Moudi, so glad you found this place. 

Edited July 19, 2023 by awi