hello,

[leaff]

hopefully this is the right spot for this, I'm in my late 20s but somehow this is the first time I've ever posted on a forum lol.

Anyway, hey everybody. I think I’m now fully contending with my diagnosis of complex PTSD, and I’m currently dealing with the worse flare up I’ve had since I was a teenager, though to be honest this feels worse than that. Two fairly big triggers have forced me into the process of acknowledging the effect that the years of abuse had on me and I feel completely and totally lost. I was referred to this site by a call to a crisis hotline in my state, and though at first I felt like it wouldn’t be something that’d help me, but after looking around and seeing how nice and welcoming everyone is, I feel like I’m in the right place.

I don’t have much else to say. I’ve been looking to talk about this for a very long time I think, and at this point, although I never want anyone to go through what I did, I’m just hoping to not feel so alone.

Thanks for reading, I look forward to talking with you all.

[MeBeMary]

Hi there leaff and welcome. 

I am sorry you have reason to be here, but happy you decided to reach out. What happened to you was wrong, it was unfair and undeserved. You really have found a supportive site tho, with many understanding and kind members. Tho it is sad so many of us do understand, the greatest thing is now that none of us...including you, are alone. 

Feel free to take as much time as you need and start to interact when you feel ready. It will be surprising how you become comfortable, even if you have no forum experience. I can personally attest to that! 

I am glad you are here and wish you the best on your continuing journey in healing. 

Mary

  

Edited May 7, 2022 by MeBeMary

[Finchy]

Welcome to AS, @leaff! I'm glad you found your way here. ❤️ I'm sorry to hear about what you've been through and what you're going through right now. I also have C-PTSD. The flare-ups can be really bad. I'm sorry you're struggling with it right now.  But I am SO glad that you've sought help and that you ended up here. Truly. You are in the right place...you will meet lots of friendly and supportive people here. You're not alone.

I wish you all the best. Take your time exploring. We're here for you. ❤️ 

-Finch

[leaff]

Thank you so much! It means a lot to me that there's a place like this with people who're so welcoming and sincere. I know I'm just beginning a process, but this seems like a good place to start  

[8888]

Welcome @leaff to After Silence.  I’m sorry for what brought you here but I’m happy you are here reaching out for support.  Good job taking this step in your healing process.  You are not alone and what happened to you wasn’t your fault.  Take your time exploring and post when you are ready.  If you have any questions feel free to message me. 

[missfrier]

Dear leaff

 

Welcome to After Silence.  I am sorry to hear of the trauma you have been through!

 

Being here has helped me so much.   Everyone is so caring and supportive here.  I am proud of you for reaching out.  I know that is hard to do.  I also know that you will find that needed compassion and support here within our community.  Know we are here for you and we will listen whenever you would like to lean on us.    

 

Take care and please do not hesitate to ask for any help if you ever need it.