I’m new and seek guidance

[Stace]

Hello, my name is Stacy. I am 19 years old and recently I’ve noticed myself lost in my own thoughts. It affects me everyday, I’ve been trying to learn coping mechanisms such as watching educational videos on surviving sexual assault but it’s so hard when I feel like everything triggers me into a panic attack. Someone recommended this forum and I thought I would try. 

When I was 17 years old I was assaulted by someone who I was very close with.I haven’t been able to forget that bad feeling, I feel it everyday. Its been 2 years but I remember everything so clearly it takes over my brain sometimes. Not a day goes by where I don’t feel the shame and I’m not ready to speak to others about it yet. I want to be free from this feeling so badly 

[missfrier]

Dear stace

 

I am sorry for all that you have been through.   You have been so brave in reaching out to us, please know that this is never easy!   We are all here for you and we want to support you.  You're not alone in your healing journey and are always welcome to lean on us for extra support.  You can post as much or as little as you like.  We are here to support you in the way you need.  I have found this community to be very helpful.  Everyone is so understanding and non-judgmental and I am hoping you feel the same way once you've gotten to know us a little.   

 

All my best,

missfrier

 

 

[8888]

Welcome @Stace to After Silence.  I’m sorry for what brought you here but I’m happy you are here reaching out for support.  Good job taking this step in your healing process.  You are not alone and what happened to you wasn’t your fault.  Take your time exploring and post when you are ready.  If you have any questions feel free to message me. 

[MeBeMary]

Hi Stacy,

Welcome to AfterSilence. I am very sorry for what happened to you two years ago. This was unfair and undeserved. It was not your fault. The shame you feel is sadly normal, but also unwarranted. The only one that ever should feel shame is the ones who hurt others with a feeling of entitlement. There is not entitlement. The only think of themselves, which is not right.

I am glad that someone recommended our site. Once you look around you will feel less alone. We understand and support you. It's not easy to speak out, so we are here when you are ready to do so. It's a big step just to reach out and say hello. It is one step, hopefully of many, as you walk this path we call healing.

Mary

 

[Mary814]

I am so sorry for what you have been through. This is a big step you're taking by being here and talking. In case no one has said this to you recently, I am proud of you. 

 

Warmest Regards

 

Mary