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[M34]

I joined before and never posted. I don’t think I did. I’ve spent almost two years doing anything not to think about it. I  I don’t know what to do or say. I don’t know how to heal. I feel alone. No one understands. I look back at old videos and pictures of myself I was so happy and care free. Now I can’t go on a simple date or to the grocery store. I need help and I don’t know where to begin 

[MeBeMary]

Hi M34,

Welcome back. I am sorry you have reasons to be here, but we know they types of struggles you face. Many of us go thru the same thing. What happened to you was unfair and undeserved, but taking the step to reach out is a step in the right direction. You will not feel so alone here, as this community of survivors strongly support, encourage, and validate each other. It is brave to reach out.

Trauma does sadly change us, but we must continue to strive for a better future, as we all deserve to be happy. Healing is not easy, but it is better when we are not alone. We all must work hard to find that better tomorrow and not give up. I am glad you decided to give us a chance and wish you many safe, forward steps forward as you continue down this path we call healing.

Mary

 

[WannaMoveOn]

4 hours ago, M34 said:

I joined before and never posted. I don’t think I did. I’ve spent almost two years doing anything not to think about it. I  I don’t know what to do or say. I don’t know how to heal. I feel alone. No one understands. I look back at old videos and pictures of myself I was so happy and care free. Now I can’t go on a simple date or to the grocery store. I need help and I don’t know where to begin 

Hello M34. Welcome to After Silence  I am Wanna 

Starting out here hopefully makes you feel less alone and sense some sympathy and understanding. You own your story and are invited to share once you feel ready to. 

I second @MeBeMary trauma does tend to change us. Healing is a transforming experience, but you can actually come out stronger and happier from this. The healing journey will be challenging and rocky at times, but with unconditional support and the right methods, you will have a foundation to rely on. You don't have to be alone in this and you shouldn't either. Good thing you found us! 

I am truly and deeply sorry for your reasons to be here. You have my respect and sympathies.

Hope to see you around

- Wanna ☀️

Edited October 19, 2020 by WannaMoveOn

[missfrier]

Hello M34

Welcome back to After Silence!  I'm so sorry that  things are still tough for you.   We are all still here to support you.  You don't have to do this alone.   Please remember that you are always welcome to lean on us  for support.  We are always willing to listen.

Sending lots of support,
missfrier

[8888]

Welcome @M34 to After Silence.  I’m sorry for what brought you here but I’m happy you are here reaching out for support.  Good job taking this step in your healing process.  Healing can be a confusing process.  It's okay to feel unsure.  You are not alone and what happened to you wasn’t your fault.  Take your time exploring here and post when you are ready.  If you have any questions feel free to message me. 

[Vinsami]

Hi M34,

You are not alone. We are all here bc someone, or more than one, devastated us. They’ve taken and they’ve given—they’ve taken our happiness, our feelings of safety, and given us fear, horror, and shame. But we are here bc we want to overcome, and I’m so proud of you for making it here. I come here to not feel alone, and so far I have found that and more. I’m sorry for what you’ve gone thru and what you still carry. I believe in you and your strength. We can make it thru this ❤️

[strawberrydelightful]

Hi M34,

I just wanted to reiterate what the others have said. You are not alone, this community is here to help and that's a start. You've taken a very important first step and there are so many wonderful people here who can support you along the way.

[Mary814]

Welcome back,

I am new here but I wanted to say we support you and will listen to what you have to say. Talking helps. I hope you find your way to healing soon. 

 

my warmest regards

[BooksnCoffee]

On 10/18/2020 at 6:29 PM, M34 said:

I don’t know how to heal

Hello M34, not knowing where to begin for healing is okay. You've made the first step and hopefully found a safe place here.

It was years before I knew I had trauma and that I needed to address it. Recognizing what happened to me was the first step. I can't speak for all trauma but it does affect all of us. PTSD and C-PTSD are also things that people deal with (I'm not a doctor).

Going on a date or to the grocery store may be harder for you than others and that's okay. Maybe try to notice what you're feeling when you're in these situations? Maybe write those thoughts and feelings down? Plenty of time to address them later but just knowing what you're dealing with can help a lot.

I'm sure you'll find a lot of understanding folks here.