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[Gerty]

Hi All,

I’m new here. This is my first time on a forum like this. I always knew bits and pieces of what happened to me but over the past year or so memories started to come back and it has turned my world upside down.  It’s taken a lot of therapy but I have finally stopped denying it really happened and I’m ready to start talking about it.  I don’t want to say much here since its public but I feel like the last 30 years have been stolen from me in a way.  I’m 41 years old and suddenly I feel like I don’t even know who I am anymore.  Looking forward to having people to share with who understand.

[abhaya]

Hi @Gerty

I'm sorry for what you have gone through that brought you here, and i hope you find it a good supportive place.  I'm new-ish too, and I have found the community to be really welcoming and kind.  Don't feel pressure to share anything unless/until you're ready. I'm glad to meet you.  🙂

[missfrier]

Dear gerty

I would like to welcome you to After Silence's forums.  We are all here for you and want to support you in any way we can. I know that posting for the first time can be scary.  Please don't worry, though; you will always be given so much support from our lovely community and its members.  You're not alone - we are with you.

You will soon receive an official welcome message in your inbox.  Please feel free to respond to that PM if you have any questions about the forum or if you need some help finding your way around the site. 

Take care and keep reaching out!! 

 

[WannaMoveOn]

10 hours ago, Gerty said:

Hi All,

I’m new here. This is my first time on a forum like this. I always knew bits and pieces of what happened to me but over the past year or so memories started to come back and it has turned my world upside down.  It’s taken a lot of therapy but I have finally stopped denying it really happened and I’m ready to start talking about it.  I don’t want to say much here since its public but I feel like the last 30 years have been stolen from me in a way.  I’m 41 years old and suddenly I feel like I don’t even know who I am anymore.  Looking forward to having people to share with who understand.

Hello Gerty! My warmest welcomes

I am truly sorry about your trauma. This is a place to get support and to get acquainted with other survivors and secondary survivors. We will be here for you and I am happy you decided to join. 

It is never too late to start processing and healing. Feeling confused about yourself, maybe even having an identity crisis, is not unusual among survivors. I hope that you know that you are not alone in this. Good work on starting getting past denying, I encourage you to keep using your words!

All best and take care  

- Wanna ☀️

Edited September 7, 2020 by WannaMoveOn

[MeBeMary]

Hi Gerty,

Welcome to AfterSilence. I am sorry for the trauma you have endured and the memories you are struggling with. Being hurt is so undeserved and unfair. You have found a community that understands and will be supportive and kind as you begin this path of healing. It's not easy, but it can be done.

We do tend to lose a lot of ourselves when we go thru trauma, I do agree. I do think some things remain tho. The fighter that stop denying is you. I know you may not feel like it right now, but it is true. I'm sure much more is there, but we do understand there are things we don't recognize in ourselves. You will discover these things, as you move forward. I wish you well as you find your way down this path. We are here for you.

Mary

[8888]

Welcome @Gerty to After Silence.  I’m sorry for what brought you here but I’m happy you are here reaching out for support.  Good job taking this step in your healing process.  You are not alone and what happened to you wasn’t your fault.  Take your time exploring and post when you are ready.  If you have any questions feel free to message me. 

[Sobieski]

On 9/7/2020 at 2:55 AM, Gerty said:

Hi All,

I’m new here. This is my first time on a forum like this. I always knew bits and pieces of what happened to me but over the past year or so memories started to come back and it has turned my world upside down.  It’s taken a lot of therapy but I have finally stopped denying it really happened and I’m ready to start talking about it.  I don’t want to say much here since its public but I feel like the last 30 years have been stolen from me in a way.  I’m 41 years old and suddenly I feel like I don’t even know who I am anymore.  Looking forward to having people to share with who understand.

Hello Gerty,

I am new here as well. I can relate to a lot of what you are saying. I am fifty years old and feel as time has been taken from me.

[Gerty]

Hi Sobieski, It’s amazing how something you didn’t even realized had happened can have such a huge impact on your entire life. 
I’m sorry for what brought you here but it’s nice to meet you and I look forward to getting to know you. 

[Anonymous4]

On 9/7/2020 at 8:55 AM, Gerty said:

Hi All,

I’m new here. This is my first time on a forum like this. I always knew bits and pieces of what happened to me but over the past year or so memories started to come back and it has turned my world upside down.  It’s taken a lot of therapy but I have finally stopped denying it really happened and I’m ready to start talking about it.  I don’t want to say much here since its public but I feel like the last 30 years have been stolen from me in a way.  I’m 41 years old and suddenly I feel like I don’t even know who I am anymore.  Looking forward to having people to share with who understand.

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Edited May 13, 2021 by Anonymous4
DMd since I've noticed this is Public