Hi! So glad I've found AS

[Eorunia]

So first off: English isn't my first language, and if there are mistakes and if my language gets wobbly, I sincerely apologize.

Hi! I'm a survivour who hadn't known what had happened for 6 years after it did, and after that it took another year to seek professional and medical help. I'm still not completely well, but just accepting my trauma and being able to name it out loud (if to a very small handful of people) feels liberating.

I hope After Silence is a place where I can finally open up and connect with fellow survivours. I don't know of any survivour support groups where I live, so the internet was my only option. Besides, it isn't required to show my face here, which makes sharing less scary.

I'm still struggling, paying attention to myself and my needs is still hard, but I find comfort in different forms of art I enjoy making: writing, sewing (by hand, I've begun it only recently so still a newbie), knitting, making chainmaille jewelry. Also I love playing certain videogames when I can.

Breaking my silence is what I would love to do, and I feel like I'm reaching that point.

Thank you all for being here and making After Silence such a welcome community.

[missfrier]

QDear eoruina

I would like to welcome you to After Silence's forums.  We are all here for you and want to support you in any way we can. I know that posting for the first time can be scary.  Please don't worry, though; you will always be given so much support from our lovely community and its members.  You're not alone - we are with you.

You will soon receive an official welcome message in your inbox.  Please feel free to respond to that PM if you have any questions about the forum or if you need some help finding your way around the site. 

Take care and keep reaching out!! 

 

[WannaMoveOn]

55 minutes ago, Eorunia said:

So first off: English isn't my first language, and if there are mistakes and if my language gets wobbly, I sincerely apologize.

Hi! I'm a survivour who hadn't known what had happened for 6 years after it did, and after that it took another year to seek professional and medical help. I'm still not completely well, but just accepting my trauma and being able to name it out loud (if to a very small handful of people) feels liberating.

I hope After Silence is a place where I can finally open up and connect with fellow survivours. I don't know of any survivour support groups where I live, so the internet was my only option. Besides, it isn't required to show my face here, which makes sharing less scary.

I'm still struggling, paying attention to myself and my needs is still hard, but I find comfort in different forms of art I enjoy making: writing, sewing (by hand, I've begun it only recently so still a newbie), knitting, making chainmaille jewelry. Also I love playing certain videogames when I can.

Breaking my silence is what I would love to do, and I feel like I'm reaching that point.

Thank you all for being here and making After Silence such a welcome community.

Hello Eorunia, and welcome to After Silence! I am Wanna

No worries about your English, it's not my first language either and I understand you perfectly well. 

Realizing what happened takes a while, maybe even years like in your case, but it is never too late to start your recovery journey. I am sorry for what happened to you and that you couldn't find professional help faster. I am glad you found us and decided to join. 

You can open up about anything here. If you had the chance to browse our site, you might have noticed that we talk about different kinds of trauma, coping, struggle and mental health, but also life in general and things we like. We have a wide diversity both when it comes to types of survivors and topics on this platform. We put value in the anonymity that allows the members to feel free to share. You are most invited to. This is a place to vent, get support and feel safe. 

You got yourself some lovely hobbies there. Wonderful that you keep yourself busy with crafty things. If you are struggling, please know that After Silence is there for all types of days, phases and situations. We believe you. Keep using your words!  

Stay Safe and hope to see you around,

- Wanna  

[Capulet]

Hello @Eorunia, and welcome to After Silence!!!

Swinging by to say hi and to let you know that I think it's very brave of you to join our community - it's never easy to ask for support but this site truly has been a godsend for me and I am hoping you find exactly what you're looking for, here, and that you're not alone by any means.  Congratulations on being ready to take that next leap - breaking your silence!  That is truly an incredible way to begin this journey that we call healing!!!  

By the way - it's okay to not be completely well.  I think many, many of us can relate to that.  It's also okay to not be okay; trauma is not gentle nor is it ever easy to overcome.  It takes a lot of time and patience and although it is difficult and takes many tolls, it's also not impossible.  

You've got this.   

Again, welcome!

Best wishes, 
Capulet

[MeBeMary]

Hi there, Eorunia,

Welcome to AfterSilence. I am very sorry you experienced trauma 6 years ago, but know you are not alone. This community is filled with understanding and supportive members and as WannaMoveOn has mentioned, it is very diverse. I think this is something that helps us know, even if we are from different areas and different backgrounds, much of our feelings and struggles are truly relatable. I would never wish trauma on anyone, but it is a comfort to know walk the same path.

It is a big step to reach out to others, so I commend you on that step. Healing isn't easy, but do know we are here for you. Take your time to look around and interact where you are comfortable. I wish you many forward steps on this journey of healing,

Mary

[8888]

Welcome @Eorunia to After Silence.  I’m sorry for what brought you here but I’m happy you are here reaching out for support.  Good job taking this step in your healing process.  You are not alone and what happened to you wasn’t your fault.  Take your time exploring and post when you are ready.  If you have any questions feel free to message me. 

[coffeeaddict]

I love making jewelry some chainmaille, but mostly pendants. sewing (mostly machine now, but I hand sew, still, as well) and knitting, too.
 

i think these hobbies are calming for the overwhelmed mind.

 

welcome to AS!