Hey, new here.

[Anonymous26]

So hey, I’m new here. I’m unsure of how this works or what to post but. 
I stumbled across this site, looking for somewhere to talk to others who can relate to what I’m going through and maybe help me with my healing process. I’m a rape survivor it happened in oct by someone I thought was a good friend. After it happened he continued to stalk harass and send comments I’m unsure if I should share or not, so this went on for a few months. 
but I reached out and got a little help, but I’ve been pushing it so far deep down to where I wasn’t seeing my therapist or talking about it or thinking about anymore, like as if nothing ever happened. But over the weekend it hit me so hard and now I’m struggling with it! 

sorry for the long post! But thank you!! ❤️❤️

Edited April 1, 2020 by Anonymous26

[Tsabu]

Hi @Anonymous26,

Welcome to After Silence!  

I am sorry for what that 'friend' did to you!!  Trauma does have a way of coming back up to the surface regardless of how we try to push it back down.

I hope you find the support you need here on AS.  Perhaps it might also be an idea to consider further help from your T in the future.

Take gentle care of you @Anonymous26.

Tsabu  

[missfrier]

Dear anonymous26

I am sorry for all that you have been through.   You have been so brave in reaching out to us, please know that this is never easy!   We are all here for you and we want to support you.  You're not alone in your healing journey and are always welcome to lean on us for extra support.  You can post as much or as little as you like.  We are here to support you in the way you need.  I have found this community to be very helpful.  Everyone is so understanding and non-judgmental and I am hoping you feel the same way once you've gotten to know us a little.   

All my best,
missfrier

[Poppy_]

Hi, @Anonymous26 - 

Welcome to After Silence! I'm so sorry for what happened to you in October and what continued to happen afterwards. I'm also sorry that it was a good friend that betrayed you. I know how hard it is to deal with this kind of thing and to try to just push it down and not talk about it. I'm hoping that being here though, will give you the courage to talk and maybe start seeing a T again. Our only goal here is to help you heal in any way we can! 

If you ever need anything at all, please feel free to reach out to me! I'm here supporting you always 

Best wishes,
Poppy

[8888]

Welcome @Anonymous26 to After Silence.  I’m sorry for what brought you here but I’m happy you are here reaching out for support.   Good job taking this step in your healing process.  You are not alone and what happened to you wasn’t your fault.  Take your time exploring and post when you are ready.  If you have any questions feel free to message me. 

[Anonymous26]

Yes, I mean honestly I think I’m ready to talk and share and find people who can relate so it can help with the healing process of it. Because obviously it’s not helping me, by pushing it down and trying to pretend it’s not there. You know? 
thank you so much for making me feel so welcome and and for the support!

[marcyabadeer]

@Anonymous26 welcome to after silence  

 

sam🖤

[Anonymous26]

@samantha2009 thank you! 😊

[MeBeMary]

22 hours ago, Anonymous26 said:

So hey, I’m new here. I’m unsure of how this works or what to post but. 
I stumbled across this site, looking for somewhere to talk to others who can relate to what I’m going through and maybe help me with my healing process. I’m a rape survivor it happened in oct by someone I thought was a good friend. After it happened he continued to stalk harass and send comments I’m unsure if I should share or not, so this went on for a few months. 
but I reached out and got a little help, but I’ve been pushing it so far deep down to where I wasn’t seeing my therapist or talking about it or thinking about anymore, like as if nothing ever happened. But over the weekend it hit me so hard and now I’m struggling with it! 

sorry for the long post! But thank you!! ❤️❤️

Hi Anonymous26,

Welcome to AfterSilence. I am very sorry for the trauma you have experienced last fall, but you have found a very supportive site. The members are truly understanding and kind. I am sorry of your recent trigger and are now struggling. Triggers can be so unpredictable for survivors. I am glad that you have found our community and decided to join. You are not alone. Take your time and look about, tho the site may be a little intimidating at first, you will eventually be comfortable with the layout and are free to post and reply to others when you are ready.

I wish you nothing but the best as you travel down this road we call healing.

Mary

 

[Mave]

Welcome, @Anonymous26!

I am so, so sorry to hear about what happened to you--and the additional pain further contact with that person caused. You did not deserve any of that, and none of this is your fault. You did nothing to deserve this, and we are all here and happy to hear whatever you're comfortable sharing. Take a look around and let us know if you have any questions. Glad that you found us!

Mave