Hi I’m new

[Browneyeshighheels]

Hi I’m new 

Years ago I chose to move on. Never talk about it. Never think about it. It worked at least I thought I did. The one person that does know I pretend doesn’t exist. How can I live my life if I didn’t try to move on from what had happened? I am stuck in a world where all I think about is being raped 24/7 in my head to no one knows when I see them face to face. Keeping a diary is too messy and since I’ve never been able to tell anyone I joined this fourm! Looking forward to chatting and getting support, to tell my friends/family. As I am ready to tell my story well to strangers anyway 

Edited March 26, 2020 by Browneyeshighheels

[marcyabadeer]

@Browneyeshighheels Hello and welcome to After Silence. Let me start off by saying, I am currently stuck in this same spot. I buried my trauma deep for almost 10 years. Now it is all I think about also  I really feel your pain! I am so sorry you are dealing with this. 
 

I am sorry you have trauma that brings you here, but we are glad you found us  

I hope this site can bring you comfort while you continue organizing all your thoughts/memories! 
 

sitting with you 

sam 💜

[missfrier]

Dear browneyeshighheels

I am sorry for all that you have been through.   You have been so brave in reaching out to us, please know that this is never easy!   We are all here for you and we want to support you.  You're not alone in your healing journey and are always welcome to lean on us for extra support.  You can post as much or as little as you like.  We are here to support you in the way you need.  I have found this community to be very helpful.  Everyone is so understanding and non-judgmental and I am hoping you feel the same way once you've gotten to know us a little.   

All my best,
missfrier

[snmls]

Hi @Browneyeshighheels

Welcome to AS. I'm sorry for the trauma you've experienced, but I'm glad you found the site and decided to join. This is a safe space and we are all here to support each other. It is never to late to open up and being the healing process. It can be hard holding all of that pain and trauma inside. Sometimes sharing and talking with other survivors can help you to feel less alone and help with the healing process. You are welcome to post on the site whenever you feel comfortable. We are all here for you. Keep reaching out for support.  

[8888]

Welcome Browneyeshighheels to After Silence.  I’m sorry for what brought you here but I’m happy you are here reaching out for support.   Good job taking this step in your healing process.  You are not alone and what happened to you wasn’t your fault.  Take your time exploring and post when you are ready.  If you have any questions feel free to message me. 

Edited March 27, 2020 by 8888

[Struggling88]

Hi, browneyeshighheels, and welcome! 

[MeBeMary]

Hi Browneyeshighheels,

Welcome to AfterSilence. I am very sorry for what you've been thru and the struggles you have had. I did the same thing, denying it all until just a few years ago and I searched for help online. I found this wonderful community. It was an important step for me and I hope you find it just as important. Finding others who truly understand and support you is an amazing thing. Take your time and look around the site and jump on in when you feel comfortable. Wishing you all the best on this journey we call healing.

Mary

[MeganMe]

Hi! I hope this site helps you, I find it helpful when I'm here. I also buried my story for years and now it all wants to come out. I wish we had control over it 😕 but it's okay that we don't. I hope you find what you need here!

[Poppy_]

Hi, @Browneyeshighheels - 

Welcome to After Silence! l hope you are finding your way around the site okay. I saw that you have already posted your story in the Share Your Story forum and I hope that was helpful to you! Keep in mind that you won't be alerted of replies in that forum, so you will have to go in and look to see if there are responses  It seems like you're navigating the site okay but if you have any questions or need anything, feel free to reach out to me! 

I'm here supporting you in your journey  

Wishing you all the best,
Poppy

[Anonymous26]

I am 100% literally in the same boat as you!! Except mine trauma happened in oct. 2019. 
I pushed it deep deep down and chose not to think or talk or bring it up. And it’s all hiring me now and I came across this site. I finally found people who can relate to what I’m currently feeling. 
I’m sorry that this happened to you! And hopefully you find some relief and healing!!