Hello

[Laura355]

Hi my name is Laura.   I've been married for 25 years.  My husband is a nurse.  I was a nurse for twenty years.  I'm now on disability.

My father and brother physically, sexually and mentally abused me. I was raped when someone broke into our house.  That was three months ago.  Some days I can barely function.    I have severe panic attacks.   I have major depression and CPTSD.

[marcyabadeer]

@Laura355 Hello and welcome to After Silence. I am so sorry for the pain that brought you here but I am so glad you have found us. You are not alone in this struggle.

sam

[goldraindrops]

Dear @Laura355,

I'm so sorry for what happened to you.  That sounds horrible and I'm sure you're hurting a lot right now.  

I'm happy you found us.  This is a safe, warm, supportive community full of people who understand your suffering.

Feel free to read through our threads and post whenever you want to and feel up to it.  

Wishing you peace and healing,

Gold Raindrops

[missfrier]

Dear laura

I am sorry for all that you have been through.   You have been so brave in reaching out to us, please know that this is never easy!   We are all here for you and we want to support you.  You're not alone in your healing journey and are always welcome to lean on us for extra support.  You can post as much or as little as you like.  We are here to support you in the way you need.  I have found this community to be very helpful.  Everyone is so understanding and non-judgmental and I am hoping you feel the same way once you've gotten to know us a little.   

All my best,
missfrier

[snmls]

Hi @Laura355

Welcome to AS. I'm sorry for the trauma in your life that brought you here, but I'm glad you found the site and decided to join. I've very sorry about all the abuse and trauma you have experienced. You did not deserve to be treated that way and none of it was your fault. It sounds like you are having a tough time right now. I can relate to having a hard time functioning on a day to day basis. We are all here to support you and will help you get through the healing process. Through this site you will see that you are not alone. You are welcome to post and share whenever you feel comfortable. Please keep reaching out for support when you need it. 

[8888]

Welcome @Laura355 to After Silence.  I’m sorry for what brought you here but I’m happy you are here reaching out for support.  Good job taking this step in your healing process.  You are not alone and what happened to you wasn’t your fault.  Take your time exploring and post when you are ready.  If you have any questions feel free to message me. 

[Laura355]

Thank you everyone.  Since the rape and attack. (I was in the hospital for two weeks from injuries). It's brought up a lot of old stuff to.   From my childhood.  When my stepdad and brother abused me.  I don't leave the house much.  When I do I have to be with someone.  My husband or a friend.  

Michael, my husband, takes me to see my therapist.  Sometimes, he goes in with me.  Or he'll sit in the waiting room.  He's so wonderful and patient.  I don't know what I'd do without him.  I don't know why he puts up with me.

I wish I could be me again.  I feel so damaged and disgusted with myself.   

My therapist recommend me joining this group.  

[Struggling88]

Hi, Laura355, and welcome! 

[Laura355]

Thank you everyone.  Since the rape and attack. (I was in the hospital for two weeks from injuries). It's brought up a lot of old stuff to.   From my childhood.  When my stepdad and brother abused me.  I don't leave the house much.  When I do I have to be with someone.  My husband or a friend.  

Michael, my husband, takes me to see my therapist.  Sometimes, he goes in with me.  Or he'll sit in the waiting room.  He's so wonderful and patient.  I don't know what I'd do without him.  I don't know why he puts up with me.

I wish I could be me again.  I feel so damaged and disgusted with myself.   

My therapist recommend me joining this group.