Hi

[RiaLavender]

Hi,

I'm not exactly sure what to write. I made this account a few months ago but never posted anything. I have been struggling a bit more the last few days again, so figured this was a step in a good direction.

Especially in the past year I have been looking back at my past and childhood and realizing a lot of things.

The silence is real, and on my part the shame I kept and the excuses I believed are real, but like I said, I think trying to get more involved here will help. I have been wanting to talk about it, but not sure who to tell.

My favorite phrase to tell myself is "Do not live a silent life." Being here is a step towards that goal for myself. Sometimes it is hard to know what to do, though.

Anyway, hello to you all and I hope to be able to find support here and offer support to you all. 

Edited December 5, 2019 by RiaLavender

[MeBeMary]

Hi RiaLavender,

Welcome to AfterSilence. I am very sorry for the trauma you have gone thru and the many things you've become to realize. You will find much support within our community. You are not alone. It is always good to try to be proactive in the healing process, tho it isn't always easy. It is ok it took you time to figure out when you should begin to post, sometimes it can be something as simple and as complicated as the holidays to trigger things a bit.

I hope you have taken a little time to look around and have seen what this site has to offer. We are here for you. Wishing you nothing but the best on this journey we call healing. 

Mary

 

[RiaLavender]

MeBeMary,

Thank you so much for your kind and welcoming words. I will keep looking around.

RiaLavender

[missfrier]

2 hours ago, RiaLavender said:

Hi,

I'm not exactly sure what to write. I made this account a few months ago but never posted anything. I have been struggling a bit more the last few days again, so figured this was a step in a good direction.

Especially in the past year I have been looking back at my past and childhood and realizing a lot of things.

The silence is real, and on my part the shame I kept and the excuses I believed are real, but like I said, I think trying to get more involved here will help. I have been wanting to talk about it, but not sure who to tell.

My favorite phrase to tell myself is "Do not live a silent life." Being here is a step towards that goal for myself. Sometimes it is hard to know what to do, though.

Anyway, hello to you all and I hope to be able to find support here and offer support to you all. 

Dear rialavender

I am sorry for all that you have been through.   You have been so brave in reaching out to us, please know that this is never easy!   We are all here for you and we want to support you.  You're not alone in your healing journey and are always welcome to lean on us for extra support.  You can post as much or as little as you like.  We are here to support you in the way you need.  I have found this community to be very helpful.  Everyone is so understanding and non-judgmental and I am hoping you feel the same way once you've gotten to know us a little.   

All my best,
missfrier

[8888]

Welcome @RiaLavender to After Silence.  I’m sorry for what brought you here but I’m happy you are here reaching out for support.  Good job taking this step in your healing process.  You are not alone and what happened to you wasn’t your fault.  Take your time exploring and post when you are ready.  If you have any questions feel free to message me. 

[Struggling88]

Hi, RiaLavender, and welcome! 

[Capulet]

Hello, @RiaLavender and welcome to After Silence!!!

 

[Poppy_]

Hi, @RiaLavender - 

Welcome to After Silence! I'm sorry you're struggling right now. I am glad you decided to post, though! I'm hoping through posting you will feel the love and support you deserve to help you toward your goal of healing  This is definitely a safe place to share anything you feel you would like to share with absolutely no judgment. We all understand the pain that coincides with this kind of trauma all too well. I hope you're able to speak out and it will empower you to take control of your situation. If you need anything at all, please feel free to send me a message! I'm always here. 

Sending happy thoughts,
Poppy

[snmls]

Hi @RiaLavender

Welcome to AS.  I'm sorry for the trauma you have deal with, but I'm glad you found the site and decided to join.  This is a safe space and we are all here to support each other. Sharing and opening up can be tough, but it can also be healing. You are welcome to post and share on the site whenever you feel comfortable. I hope you end up finding this site as helpful as I do.