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[GrayLady]

Hi... I am new here. I am dealing with what I’ve been calling a “gray” situation and I am having a hell of a time coping. I am working with a psychiatrist and therapist but I don’t seem to be moving forward. I am in a terrible place and desperately want to live again. I am looking forward to sharing my story although I am scared to because I was not forced to do anything. 

[fallenstar]

Hi @GrayLady welcome to After Silence! I'm sorry for the trauma that happened to you and that you're struggling with coping. Healing from this takes its time and is not the same for everyone. Sometimes it seems we are moving forward steadily and sometimes we are at a stand-still. No one will judge you for your story, each person's story is as unique as the snowflakes that fall. The main thing is that you were sadly hurt and all we all want is to heal. This forum is a very supportive place to connect with other survivors. I do hope that in this time you will find some healthy ways to cope. 

[Angel4100]

I am here if you need to talk

[Painnbroken]

9 hours ago, GrayLady said:

Hi... I am new here. I am dealing with what I’ve been calling a “gray” situation and I am having a hell of a time coping. I am working with a psychiatrist and therapist but I don’t seem to be moving forward. I am in a terrible place and desperately want to live again. I am looking forward to sharing my story although I am scared to because I was not forced to do anything. 

Welcome to AS! I’m sorry that you are struggling and the trauma you’ve experienced. Take your time look around.  You’re not alone here and you’ve found a supportive site. Best wishes on your healing journey. 

PB

[reglois]

   

[MeBeMary]

11 hours ago, GrayLady said:

Hi... I am new here. I am dealing with what I’ve been calling a “gray” situation and I am having a hell of a time coping. I am working with a psychiatrist and therapist but I don’t seem to be moving forward. I am in a terrible place and desperately want to live again. I am looking forward to sharing my story although I am scared to because I was not forced to do anything. 

Hi GrayLady,

Welcome to AS. I am very sorry for the gray situation that you have experienced. Do know that abuses do not always take on the form of "force", as manipulation, coercion, and intimidation is just as wrong as an abuser who uses physical strength to get what they want, without regard to you or the hell it puts you thru. Take your time and when you feel ready to share, you will have many understanding members that will hear and support you. I'm sorry you have reason to be here, but happy you have found us. I wish you the very best on your journey of healing.

Mary

 

[GrayLady]

Thank you so much for responding. I am thankful to have found this place and want to share my story. In my heart I know what happened was wrong but my brain is my worst enemy. 

[GrayLady]

15 hours ago, Painnbroken said:

Welcome to AS! I’m sorry that you are struggling and the trauma you’ve experienced. Take your time look around.  You’re not alone here and you’ve found a supportive site. Best wishes on your healing journey. 

PB

Thank you for the support. It means so much. 

[Painnbroken]

2 minutes ago, GrayLady said:

Thank you for the support. It means so much. 

You’re very welcome dear.  Anything I can do don’t hesitate to ask.  

[Struggling88]

Hi, GrayLady, and welcome!