Hi all

[Liliana28]

Hi everyone,

I guess everyone finds taking the first step difficult. I've been attempting to push this to the back of my mind for over a decade now. 

 I'm hoping to find a bit of support on here and I am hoping to work out that this wasn't my fault and that I shouldn't be so ashamed of what I have been through.

I always try to stay light hearted on the outside so I envisaged my first post to be less dark. However, I think that the anonymity of this does help me to be more open.

I've probably already typed too much so I'd like to just say a quick hi to everyone and say that I'm looking forward to trying to be a supportive member of this site. 

All the best,

Lil

Edited February 22, 2017 by Liliana28

[MeBeMary]

Hi Liliana,

Welcome to AS. I am very sorry for the trauma you endured. Nobody has the right to hurt you this way and in no way is it your fault. I do understand these feelings tho, as most of us have or do feel this unwarranted guilt.  I do hope you will be able to eventually turn it back on your abuser.  You are right when you say this first step of reaching out to others is difficult. I wish you the best as you continue this journey forward and find your healing path.

Mary

 

[Ian37]

Welcome, Liliana28! Cannot possibly make that giant leap unless you make that first step. There is already strength within that.

It would be so much easier if it could be pushed all the way back. The harder we try to push it away seems to just put it front and center even further.

The anonymity can make it much easier to open up. This is how it was with me. That being said, this truly is an amazing community filled with remarkable human beings who really do care.

May your first movements on here be positive ones.

[phoenixxx]

Welcome to AS, Lil. I am glad you found your way here. although i wish you hadn't had to go through something terrible. I am also finally facing something that happened over a decade ago, and it isn't easy but we can do this! 

I hope you find this community as kind and supportive as I have found it, and that it can be useful for your healing. This first step is scary, I know, but you will see, this is a safe place!   

[Rebs]

 

[reglois]

   

[Liliana28]

Thanks for the messages everyone, I know that this is the first step of 1,000 or so and it's comforting to know that I have company along the way.

 

[howlieowl]

welcome @Liliana28. i am sorry for what has brought you here. i hope you find tremendous support here. i wish you much peace, love, and comfort on your journey to healing.

[Struggling88]

Hi, Liliana28, and welcome! 

[JA5]

Hi